I’m just going to lay out the playing field right now. I have exhibited strange behavior all of my life. I have been agressive and not really held back all my life. I have also been loving and caring. More recently I’ve blurred the lines between the two. I am not sure which side of the coin I land on. I have had delusions of dead family members talking to be and it sometimes feels like my thought process is broken. Like all parts of my brain do commentary to my subconscious. I have been Diagnosed with ADHD,ODD,IED and undiagnosed depression. What I came here to accomplish is to find out if anyone else has these problems. I also cannot stop smiling even during things I shouldn’t find funny. I find it to be very conflicting and depressing. I find it to be funny but at the same time I know how ■■■■■■ it is and I am usually depressed because of it. But at the same time I’ve embellished it. My whole life is a conundrum. So there is more if you have any questions but I think I left y’all with enough to comment on.
People who are depressed or schizophrenic don’t smile. I wish I could smile more often but something has to be really funny to get me to chuckle.
We are also not generally real aggressive I don’t think but I could be wrong. I think we are more likely to be victims of crime than criminals. For those of us who are medicated anyway. I am a danger to everyone but especially to myself when I am not medicated.
The psycho schizophrenic killer is an exaggeration. But nonetheless welcome to the club.
I can’t get over the fact that you said people with depression don’t smile. Nothing against you but don’t take such a narrow view on what a depressed person so act like because there are people like Robin Williams out there who smile their way through it everyday. Also, I’m not trying to make schitzophrenic people look like psychos. I’m just telling you how I am thinking.
I also never said I took medication my friend.
Robin Williams was a funny guy but he killed himself. He put up a good front. If it works for you it works. I don’t really have depression I think I have negative symptoms of schizophrenia and one of the meds I take is an antidepressant.
From my experience with schizophrenia though smiling isn’t something I do often. I usually have a very flat affect. Maybe schizoaffectives who experience mania smile. I don’t know. I have never had mania but it would be something to look forward too.
I didn’t say you took medication. I do. I have to.
The psycho thing was just a general observation about stigma. I don’t think you were saying that was true. I just threw it out there.
I smile a lot. Not genuine, but you have to play long to get along.
That’s a good thing. Bravo.
Ok. I misinterpreted it. I could possibly be schitzoaffective. I would definitely need a doctor to dianosis it before I took it up as a possibility. I was on Seroquel with amphetamine and Ambien. I am currently on nothing. Some days are ok. Some are unbearable. This is an in between day. I do have a flat effect but there is this vacant smile I have. It’s a feeling neutral smile because I can be extremely mad when I do it. I can even be sad. It’s my brains way I assume of blocking out bad or sad thoughts as a defense mechanism. I’ve had low oxygen at birth from prolonged birth and my fair share of mind altering chemicals. I might not be the norm.
It was less of a smile and more of a disguise. Like mine.
Yeah. But I have to bite my tongue at some times because it’s not always acceptable to have a big cheesy smile on your face.
Ditto. I’m cursed with an inappropriate sense of humour and will burst out laughing at things that are horrifying to others. Have mostly managed to dial that back over the past decade, thankfully.
It’s a good and bad thing.
I had also delusions and still have some, i don’t get it how you do without medication, but it’s not my business
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