whenever i think of sadness and depression or am listening to a really sad song bout to cry i cant not smile sometimes, also when i have joy i think of how bad my life really is and how im gonna feel once it is over it is weird i have a lot of weird thoughts and things that i do like i smile every time someone is talking to me or whenever im in public people probably think im the happiest person alive but im really actually a dead person it also feels like my mind and body are controlled by different beings like i will be crying but not sad and i wonder if my body is sad and my thoughts are just too clouded to know how i really feel
I am the same way. People have told me I always look so carefree and always have a smile on my face but inside that is rarely the case. It can be confusing and stressful to not be able to show what you’re really feeling.
I can relate to feeling like my body is being controlled. But I’ve gotten so much more stable since starting on Abilify about a week ago. Very helpful medication for me, finally and thankfully lol.
It is one of the symptoms:
Schizophrenia is characterized by distortions in thinking, perception, emotions, language, sense of self and behaviour. Common experiences include:
Hallucination: hearing, seeing or feeling things that are not there.
Delusion: fixed false beliefs or suspicions that are firmly held even when there is evidence to the contrary.
Abnormal Behaviour: strange appearance, self-neglect, incoherent speech, wandering aimlessly, mumbling or laughing to self.
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