hi 
Before I log out for a while, I would like to share with this board something very important. And that is smiling. Ever since I was diagnosed, I lost my natural happiness. For years I struggled for the answer to get people to react to me positively. And it was there all along but it didnāt seem natural. So I tried it. Flashing smiles, everyone I go, and what did I know next was, people reacted positively. Still some haters wonāt smile at all. I used to be one. Just their bad day. But Iām saying as a schizophrenic try it. It wonāt seem natural, it will be awkward. But in a social situation trying to smile people notice it. And what is great is that when they see you smile and your just showing teeth basically nothing really genuine, when you see them smiling at you, your smile becomes genuine. So yeah when Iām out or at home I keep my facial muscles from ear to ear. I guarantee you as a schizophrenic who lacks emotion, it will change your life. Even attempts at smiles have worth than that whatever else is it your going to be, that nobody understands, hostile, creep, mean, nobody cares, hateful, vengeful, crack open a smile add it to your attitude. Iām in my 12th year recovery I have seen hardships unimaginable. And a lesson appears in a form new to you daily, that is if you look at schizophrenia in the form of recovery, getting better day to day, improvement upon yourself. Its there, I was at Taco Bell, and the cashier asked me why do I look happy. I was shocked and I asked him if he was a hater, probably the wrong response, anyway, I smiled at the other cashier, and she smiled back. And he said why smile nobody likes life anyway. I replied, it goes deeper than that. Well good vibes to you all. Iām moving out of state and starting somewhere new. I find meaning in this site. So I will return. Much luv to you all, stick with it, keep at it, never look down stand tall and smile on everybody. Thank you. 