Soldier or mercenary was what I wanted to be, in that order, or soldier and federal agent, in that order…one thing to understand is that mercenaries make a minimum of six figures a year (USD) while govt agents get like high school teacher salary.
I just dont like normal life very much, its boring. I seek extreme things and I never get enough thrill or feeling of accomplishment from what I do (student and weightlifter). Today I went to class and got lunch and then hit the gym like a madman and then showered and now Im like dammit Im bored. I have a date for tomorrow night and Im hanging out with a friend during the day tomorrow but right now I am just bored as ■■■■. Like seriously. A few of my friends mentioned hanging out tonight but now theyre flaking out.
My point is that this is boring and not thrilling enough. Training all day and then going on missions sounds better than school to become a shrink. Like what the ■■■■. A schizophrenic doing all he can to become a shrink. What the ■■■■. Sure, I have insight, I could really help people. Its gonna be at least six more years of school!!!
end rant.
But what would you want to do if you were not mentally ill? What if mental illness just never happened to you? What would you want to do or be doing?
It hit me so young I had no idea what I would have been. I didn’t have life plans at 10.
My parent’s are teachers… maybe I would have done that? My Dad is an art teacher… I once saw myself living an artist’s life… but I couldn’t figure out how to keep a roof over my head that way.
But the path I’m on got me to this job… and I can see some future in this job…
Good hours… flex schedule… time to surf… not stressful… out in nature… as long as I get my work order list done… no boss breathing down my neck. This might not be what job a kid dreams of having… but I feel I lucked out.
I would say meteorologist because I long wanted to be one but it depends on when the promodal symptoms started. Meteorology involves a lot of math and I went from being in the top math class in my school to flunking a math class in a 4 year period of time. My second pick is historian as history is still something I’m pretty good at.
A librarian and a writer. The most I achieved of these was to try publish two books (but without success) and work a few months in my local library as a volunteer before the lack of motivation got to me and I quit. Sad.
My dream job is working as a saucier in a famous restaurant. I earned my chef’s ticket in my twenties, but my career progression was halted by a broken back. The Sz didn’t help, but it’s the back pain from the old injury that keeps me out of the kitchen. I have some lingering physical limitations. That’s what I would be doing if not for health issues.
I haven’t found the Sz to be an overwhelming limitation – it’s something I’ve always been able to get past. A permanent physical injury, not so much.
when I grow up, I want to be a pediatric oncologist. my functionality and communication skill have been steadily declining though, so I may not get to do that.
…oh wait i am already…!?!