hilarious so funny thought you were serious
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Happy positive person. Silly. Still silly.
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I was a genius, mainly in math, and an increasingly talented tactician, mainly displayed through chess. Despite this, I never really held much interest in school; there was always something else I’d rather be doing than my homework. I was an extravert, still am, but it’s not the same because some of my conversational skills have been lost to negative and cognitive symptoms. I had energy for days, but could still sleep with few issues. I was more organized. I was extremely arrogant, thinking I was better than everyone because I always had been. Still, I was kind and open. Anyone could need my help and I would do my best to give it to them. I always tried to be kind.
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I could cram study and do my papers at the last minute and still make As and Bs. College was easy. It’s gonna be tough if I try it again. Other than that I haven’t changed a whole lot. I just worry more.
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I was very smart not genius but very bright but i had been depressed and anxious since about 11/12.
I had an odd personality and a good sense of humour i was the weird one but always had a few friends and was fairly social i did well in science and maths but loved art which i was never too good at i listened to music 24/7 and daydreamed alot.
As i started getting close to the end of highschool i was very scared because i didnt know what i wanted to do next this pain was somewhat eased when i discovered weed and began smoking quite heavily i left school and did nothing but hang with friends for 2 years then my dad got me a job where he worked, i hated it but they paid me to be there it lasted 9 months before i just stopped going.
Was very depressed at this point and my friends were all working and never had time for me and to be honest i didnt want to spend much time out the house, weed become more problematic and this eventually led to my first episode psychosis.
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I was a fool.
I was shy and socially awkward, adventurous, intelligent, sensitive, childlike, naive, carefree, perfectionist, flirtatious, temperamental, totally impulsive and rather clueless as to what i was doing and what was important in life. A loose cannon. Quiet outside and fiery inside.
I was interested in travelling, social sciences, different cultures, religions and languages (portuguese, chinese, arabic), rock climbing, being in nature, playing board games, going out and doing stupid student stuff.
I disliked boredom most of all. I disliked my studies (public management) cause it was boring and a total mismatch. I disliked social group situations. I disliked duties like household chores and homework. I disliked fixed obligations that limited my freedom.
Again: a fool.
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I was an architecture student and was looking into work with some very important global firms that specialized in conceptual architecture. I had an apartment in a nice Boston neighborhood, and lots of friends throughout the city. I also played violin and had a front row seat in my orchestra. I was a very happy, albeit nervous person, and I had a great amount of empathy. Now I’m still a student at a great school, and I’m doing something a little different, but I spend about half of every day just about bed ridden from mental illness, so it is very hard maintain relationships. It is a bit depressing but I’m proud of myself for what I have accomplished in my recovery.
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@Air wow I also was once an architecture student…I graduated before I got sick…I worked and designed homes for about nine years…very proud of that. wrote a book about my delusional journey when I first recovered sanity. the book has to be bought through my publisher now only…amazon dropped me for some reason…I just found out…bummed.
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I was a student of linguistics, mostly giving the minimum amount of effort to pass the classes. I was obsessed with languages and thought i’d become a translator for french or go around documenting dying native american languages. I wasen’t doing much else but going to school and playing video games. Then you could see where the schizophrenia hit in my marks, nothing but withdrawals and failed classes.
I’m still thinking about going back to school but this time i won’t have my scholarships.
My personality has changed quite a bit aswell. I used to be able to do public speaking so good, i remember doing a presentation in front of 200+ people. Then i tried to do one in front of like 10 people and i was freaked out. My ideas that I philosophize about have also became strange and weird.
Used to like writing alot, now i just stop mid sentence and start thinking about what is this going to accomplish? Hopefully i get back some of my writing ability, i make really dumb mistakes now when i write.
I was mediocre 
and i was happy about it.
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I was quiet, loner to strangers clown for my friends. I loved anime, manga , video games and all kinds of music. As I got into my twenties and was a electrical engineering student I had lost the clown part of my personality and just stayed quiet all the time. The illness hit at 21 or 22 years old. I dropped out of school with just four courses short of graduating
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I was never all that special in academics after around age 8. After that, I felt that moving around and not fitting in, as well as a somewhat less than perfect though certainly normal home environment, led to me manifesting depression. I was acutely anxious since preschool and also suffered from insomnia, I also believe that I had a psychotic break at 8, which would likely have been during the prodromal stage of my illness.
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Yah I miss architecture dearly. Now it is just too much stress for me. I’m focusing on software now, hoping that I can hop on the work from home train
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before I got sick I was pretty happy go lucky. have always been a bit paranoid of gov’t though.
I was interested in girls and sports and I liked to hang out and socialize. probably drank a bit too much after I graduated high school and went to college. I was always very laid back because of all the exercise I got playing sports and doing sports training. everything would just roll off my shoulders. I also liked to travel. I have seen most of the united states and been to almost all of the major cities in the states. also went to Ireland. I never paid any attention to politics before I got sick, but have started listening to political talk radio in the last year or so.
my intelligence was probably slightly above average but nothing special. I have always had a hard time figuring out mechanical things. I feel my intelligence is about the same as it was before I got sick. people were always complimentary of me, but I just chocked it up to being polite.
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I was kind. I went out of my way to help people. I was also intelligent and ambitious. I was a good dancer and singer. I wanted to help refugees and orphans. I made good money and my house and car were paid off so I sponsored orphans in China.
I was interested in learning languages and learning about other cultures.
I always dated men who were wrong for me. Ive always had a hard time making friends.
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İ can t remember how i was before sz. İt has been long time. But i was little more social and took pleasure from sea, sun an relationships. Sometimes i could take same feeling at my dreams. But i m mostly flat nowadays.
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I was a cool guy. Lots of fun to be around. Used to party like a rock star. I was a pilot. My job was challenging but it was also a lot of fun
Now I am just pretty boring but I get by and have managed to stay out of the hospital. So that’s something. The first four years I was sick I was in and out of hospitals and day treatment programs. Don’t miss that at all.
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I’ve also always been like this, since I was 8. I think before I must have been a free spirited child. I cried a lot when I started having symptoms. I was told by a close friend that I’ve always been a little off. Her perspective really got to me for a while. But then I was like ok.
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