I don’t believe it is a question of above or bellow.
above in the sense, we have seen and felt more than them
I don’t like to tell people. When I don’t say anything they never think about that, I look and act normal, so they never know. Just a few of my closest friends, who watched me psychotic know, and a couple of new friends I told to see their reaction, which was pretty good, they didn’t ask questions or looked in anyway bothered. Other than that I feel the stigma is too big.
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thats true. I also had a delirium with the devil, he used to invade my dreams and scare me when I was asleep. It was scary
the devil was in gorilla form with me, what did he look like in your dreams?
yeah absolutely. I haven’t told to a lot of people in my life. Especially coworkers. Some people who were close to me, I’ve told them depression, that’s it. My family and a few friends know.
I wanted to tell this particular person because she witnessed some of my psychosis at the time. I don’t know if she was shocked. But I had become really aggressive and that time.
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Like the devil, idk. A very evil man.
Severe stress from numerous sources - illness leading to work termination, moving house, childhood issues surfacing, spiritual crisis - led up to several dream visions in which spirit beings granted me the “gift of telepathy”… Shortly afterwards I started hearing voices, which triggered some mania and paranoia.
i had the delusion my ■■■■■ was cut off and the devil was down there doing something, in the abulance…surely the worst experince one can experince?
Yeah I understand, co-workers is harder. What do you do for work?
Terrible. I’m sorry… that is terrible
it can bring tears too my eyes sometimes, i did NO wrong to deserve it
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Nobody deserves this. I used to think that those people who made fun of me should go through what I went through to see if its funny, but I dont anymore. Of course I can laugh about some stuff but most of it is just plain painful
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people are terrorfied of mental illness… we are not because we have it,and went trough it, they fear it because its the ‘‘unknown’’ to them…i can understand why they fear it
funny, I was just about to ask you about your career. 
I’m a graphic designer. I had a full time job, lost it last month but I also freelance. Right now I’m working from home but there’s a big chance, I’m gonna move to Toronto soon and get a new full time job. I’m pondering with the idea of studying makeup professionally, I’m lacking motivation and drive to change my career. Just in-between decisions right now. I’ll know what to do soon when I come back from vacation in October.
what about you? do you study or work? are you functional at least now that you’ve recovered?
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Well, I used to be a graphic designer as well 
but mainly freelance work, not enough to pay the bills though.
So now I’m switching to tradicional chinese medicine, acupunture and fitotherapy and massage. I think its a nice change for me. I grew tired of chassing clients and had to work as a waitress because there’s not enough work here.
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From functionality point of view, i’m going to study for five years. But right now I’m focusing on getting my drivers license.
you can view some of my freelance work here: http://forum.schizophrenia.com/t/some-of-my-freelance-work/29720
Honestly, just by freelancing, I make enough money to have a decent life. I’m just never satisfied. I would like to make more money because I love luxury and expensive clothes. I will try to find a full time job. I’m also interested in studying nutrition and becoming a personal trainer. I’m very social and like to push people, I think I would really enjoy a job like that. Just switching meds right now, it’s not a good time to make big life decisions.
You’re gonna study five years?! is it a bachelor’s degree?
I got my driver’s license in 2013 after recovery and have been driving safely for some time now. You can do it 
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i am banking on winning the lotto and buying my own island 
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