What is the content of your intrusive thoughts?

DX'd - Sz/SzA
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I wonder?

Mine is like my mind is bullying me.

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  1. My pdoc being out to get me, i.e tormenting me microwaving intrusive thoughts into my head from device in lamppost across the road, tormenting me, out to get me. The NHS team I’m under isn’t really the NHS
  2. Top secret folders on me saving I’m dangerous or sex offender, have surveillance monitoring me because of it.
  3. I’m case study and have been since birth
  4. Microchip in left armpit and obsess about if its pulsing again.

I found myself thinking about all this all day every day.

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At present it is like a constant inner monologue of various issues. Kind of annoying.

I might go back on meds if this doesn’t resolve in a few days, or gets worse.

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Okay those sound more like delusions. Are you on meds?

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Yes, Invega 100mg. Defiantly intrusive thoughts as pdoc is microwaving them in my head. Also I know he’s not a real doctor, he’s a secret agent pretending to be a doctor, he doesn’t know what gaslighting is when I told him he’s gaslighting me. I caught him out on his tricks.

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Mine are absolutely horrific. They are because of my OCD, though. I get violent, sexual, and religious ones that I can’t control. I don’t want to go into detail much because it is that horrible. And then after each thought, I do a religious ritual and compulsion every time. It’s very hard and medication only works somewhat.

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Me too, violent, sexual, religious, homicidal, suicidal etc Too extreme and too long to say here.

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And you don’t have an emotional reaction to it?

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No, I can’t express or feel emotions.

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That’s the thing, I don’t know what changed in my head but when I have intrusive thoughts, like memories, insults, bullying, ugly thoughts I have an emotional reaction to it. I relive the feelings, memories.

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I had emotions b4 sz. I had a gf and now lost emotional memory of her. I remember visually but have no feelings.

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I drown in feelings, emotions all day long/

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You have sz or sza? Maybe you have sza and not sz. Also only szics with negative symptoms have apathy, flat affect, etc

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My doc said I have sza

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