what do you ‘‘not’’ know about yourself?
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Pretty much anything. My feelings lie. Difficult to know yourself without feelings guiding you.
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what makes feelings
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Probably lots of things. But, for sure I don’t know what I look like. If asked to draw a picture of myself, I can’t…
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you might appreciate this @san_pedro…
“Where is my woman?”
■■■■’s crossing my mind about every half hour these days 
I know you feel me on that bro
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That’s a tough question, because I had so much dysphoria about who I was for years.
I never truly knew if I made up who I am as a smoke screen for the deep down part of me that’s probably been hidden away for a reason.
I need to learn my limits. I need to learn how to chill.
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A huge chunk of my childhood
My sub conscious.
There’s a LOT I don’t know about myself. My personality split a while back, and I didn’t have a clear idea who I was before that either. I lost a lot of my emotions when that happened. The best I can figure is my personality originally split a long time ago, with the old me (Tom) becoming an observer. Then more recently my past has started to bubble-up, but it wasn’t compatible with who I had become, so I split again, consolidating some of my more hedonistic nature (Peace). Now that I have had some time to adjust to the situation and they have helped me to recover, I am slowly reintegrating bits of me back together. For example, I have accepted some of my past and can feel anger again now. To begin with I didn’t really appreciate the chronology to my personalities, but it’s starting to make a bit more sense now that I am learning to use radical acceptance, which seems to act as a personality-glue.
If this is true then I am actually not the original, Tom is. Nor am I my most recent self, which is mostly where Peace came from. They were/are two opposite extremes of Aggressive and Passive, but together they cancel out a bit I think.
Despite how crazy it probably all sounds, I feel like I am recovering. My GF says she thinks I am too, and she has experience with this stuff, though she doesn’t have so much identity issues as me. She is a four so she is good at identifying emotions. Sometimes she complains about my mood before I even realise I am in one!
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“What do you ”not” know about yourself?”
the exact number of hairs on my head.
I don’t know when I am manic or hypomanic.
I honestly don’t know if I am good looking or ugly. I get mixed signals on that.
I don’t know if I’m femme or butch. I honestly don’t know. I have a little of both.
I don’t know if I’m smart or stupid. I suspect neither.
I don’t know if I’m delusional or in reality when it comes to Gd. I get delusions of reference about Gd every day. I believe this is all real.