I would say, for me, its the freedom to design reality for myself, instead of being told by voices how the world really is.
What I miss the most is having control over my mind, being able to hear silence when I wanted to, and not feeling like I’m being watched all the time.
Its Studies…Education…
though i was never a Brilliant student…
This topic is kinda depressing, man…
You don’t need to believe the voices.
I miss my financial independence
I miss my memory and enthusiasm to study things.
I miss my ability to cope with situations.
perhaps its a good thing, to find what one misses, to then work at it.
Normal stable weight.
I miss my childhood - I was never “normal” but I rememeber how more carefree I was back then.
I miss the idea of my childhood home - they were happier times in many ways.
Im tired of struggling but I keep marching forward slowly and this is fine.
Being skinny. And remembering when to shower without help.
The things I miss the most are the Army, Sailing and Shooting!
I loved sailing, but some charities that I’d want to do it with only take people with physical handicaps. Otherwise it’s out of my budget.
A few years back I also looked at going tandem parachute jumping, so lost the weight to do it and again no go!
As far as things like washing goes, I could easily soak for over a hr 2x a day in the bath
I miss my career as an architect and having more money when I worked.
My sense of self
Psychedelic drugs…I’m just being honest
This one for me too.
Desire to do things
Definetly peace of mind and the ability to relax. Oh yeah, I’m not good at making bread anymore.
Being rational, and enjoying
I was 12-13. I don’t have a before. I only have one reality as an adult…I wonder what it would be like to not have been tormented by demons. I can’t imagine what that might feel like.