I wet my pants…
I figured negative attention was better than no attention, so I’d slap or pinch my siblings or do other things to make them cry.
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I went off and did my own thing. I liked exploring undeveloped spots in town and building forts and such.
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That’s more like self attention which is a good idea.
I had mostly learned that it was best not to depend on others by the age of seven. By age fourteen I was the one making sure we had grocery money.
Geez. that’s rough. I was given physical care but I couldn’t get away from the fact that my parents were suicidal.
I kind of vanished. I was there physical but not in spirit. Took my dog and went down to the beach or went to bed and disappeared in my own fantasies.
My stepfather was a privileged mtf who hated me, but loved my siblings. Now he is too old to confront him with the damage he done.
I wet my pants too, by the way, but not on purpose.
Im reading a book about schizotypy (close to schizophrenia). They talk about a “a schizo seed” which only progress to schizophrenia or schizotypy if you have had maltreatment as a child. 60 % genetics, 40% nurture.
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Oh, I didn’t wet mine on purpose either. I just couldn’t control myself. Too numb to know how.
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Apparently I didn’t care when I was a kid as I was more happy with my lego bricks than a TV just left to it
I never had that issue I guess. I don’t know if its because I didn’t have an overwhelming need for attention or if it was just because I always got it when I needed it. I was never one of those people who got upset when the attention wasn’t on me though.
I honestly can’t remember, but from what my family’s told me, I usually just wouldn’t stop talking. 
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Fascinating! I was once diagnosed with schizotypal personality disorder. That makes a lot more sense when I consider my childhood.
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I kept bothering them to play with me. I know my parents were tested because their go-to for me was to—tweez white hairs from their 40yo heads to stop disturbing them, which I wrongly picked up as “disturving.”
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Went into my room and read a book or played with my barbies. Unless it was Saturday morning. Then I’d watch cartoons
Yeah, it’s interesting, i’m diagnosed schizotypal PD and i’m pretty sure i would just be an odd kind of person, if i have had a good childhood. But i didn’t, so now i’m a schizo odd person. 
I never had that feeling. I guess I got plenty of attention or it just wasn’t real important to me.
Drew on the walls lol
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Thanked everybody profusely.
If my siblings got praise for something and I couldn’t hurt them, I would try to outshine them by mimicking their accomplishments and trying to do better than them