I’m sure i have. seeing a lot of scary things like gore and human screams that are in agony, my family being k*lled and everything. it sucks.
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Can I ask if meds helped you get out of it, the psychosis?
Yes. For first 2-3 years. I would get nightmares which had themes similar to first psychotic episode.
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I was for many years. It was so traumatizing that I blocked much of it out of my memory. I do that to protect my psyche.
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The worst was the last time I stopped my haloperidol and Alien wanted me to kill my husband and I found the urge so strong I was terrified. Also in hospital three years ago crying because I was scared Alien would hurt my husband. And the paranoia thinking I’d be killed by gunmen was awful.
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Do your meds help you now?
Well it burnt me out and now im still living with my parents and have a stupid car i just bought and cant afford no money and am waiting to apply to general assistance and possibly some disability. Well i love life no matter what even if i ever complain im secretly in heaven and lucky to be alive and i wouldnt want it any other way. Yesterdays history tommorows a mystery and todays a gift! Lol my PE coach always said that. Yes i am traumatized yes i am burnt out im excited for today and tommorow and im not complaining
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Can I ask what age you were diagnosed? Have you found meds that help?
I was probably diagnosed at 23 or 24 although ive had probelms since i was 20 21 ish. Im smoking cbd joints atm and its been a miracle for me still have meds handy. And i take gabapentin and propranolol to calm down and trazodone to sleep. Well that is the current situation
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I was shell shocked for years
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I’m so sorry. Can I ask how long you were psychotic and how you got out of it?
Yes, because I never know if things people say are true. It makes me paranoid.
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Yes, I still very vividly remember my first hallucination and it was horrifying and very scary
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Not really, but being involentarily hospialized when i did not need to be was traumatizing for me. Doctors are corrupt or just uneducated legally and quite frivolously inact involuntary hospitalization, even if you arent a danger to yourself or anyone else. Theres no accountablity.
Absolute power corrupts absolutely
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Yes.
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Yes I have trauma from my first episode. I still have a hard time trusting the people I thought were trying to hurt me. I still believe they probably have something against me and that they had something to do with my episode
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I thought people were trying to get me to commit suicide once. I bought a gun and took off to Texas. I suppose the worst time was right after I had gone off my med’s, and I went on a drinking binge. The combination of the two really made my guts twist.
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Severelly. Once the people on tv started talking to me. I saw people that weren’t there. I felt paranoia, extreme fear. It took me years to overcome the fear. I was afraid to go out to the streets for a long time. Extreme fear. I remember felling so cold from the fear I can’t really explain it. The trauma went on for years.
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yes. but it was other things, plus I was off meds,
thinking I was doing so good.
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Yes.
As a result no one likes me because I have psychosis.
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