ever experienced in life?
Ehhh⌠childhood trauma for me was scary. I canât decide between psychosis or what happened in my childhood as the scariest thing Iâve ever experienced. I know I was absolutely tremendously scared the night on last April, my most recent hospitalization, when I had my manic episode and very public mental breakdown and then the police came and got me off the street. I was crying because I was so scared because I felt so good and I felt so good that I was terrified of myself if that makes sense.
All of my psychotic episodes were really intensely frightening experiences. Chemical and physical restraints, hospitalizations, psychosis in general was just â â â â â â â crazy scary. Idk.
Do you think this experience can give you PTSD in itself?
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Not clinically defined PTSD, because for that the DSM says you must have had a threat to your life or a grave threat to your safety, and psychosis is more of a mental threat. But I DEFINITELY think it can be traumatizing. I have nightmares of being in the hospital and being tranquilized again⌠Itâs a very traumatizing experience.
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I had my first episode 14 months ago so I guess I am still ânewâ. My very first episode was pretty bad. I ended up in restraints and an involuntary hospital but I wasnât scared or in pain, just delusional as hell. My second episode was REALLY scary. I cut my wrist and took all my meds convinced I would die and come back merged with God. I definitely donât want to relive that. My third and most recent episode (I have only had 3-donât need more!) was overwhelming paranoia that I was going to be sacrificed and that I was going to harm myself or be harmed by others. I ended up hospitalized again. The worst, as I said, was my second. I was nutso-crazy and ended up hurting myself. Not good. So far I have gone 5 months with no relapse. I hope it keeps up.
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Youâre second episode sounds a lot like what I went through. I felt so good that I felt me being Jesus Christ who was also simultaneously abducted by aliens was the most likely scenario and that I had to kill myself to ascend to heaven. I know how you feel.
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It was pretty weird. I wasnât happy.
My early psychosis was scary I guess, but the scary level went off the charts when I smoked marijuana while I was psychotic already. It was pretty scary alright but I had a couple of scary experiences in crack houses years later that might have rivaled my early psychosis for being frightening. Iâm glad I donât have to do that crap anymore.
@HulGil There is nothing like âcoming downâ from a psychotic episode where you were convinced you were supposed to die. Iâm like âWTF is WRONG with me? WHAT was I thinking. PULEEZ medicate the shyt out of me.â I should say I was actually most scared when I âwoke upâ from that schizophrenia âhighâ and realized what I had done. Scared to death. I certainly hope nothing like that ever happens again.
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Have memories of going through psychosis as a kid. Was like ten times worse then as an adult.
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Exactly, just seconds after they injected the Haldol into me, I started to become lucid and I was like wtf have I done.
Iâm really grateful I didnât have this as a kid. That must have been super tough. I have late onset (very late compared to most). Thatâs one of the reasons they arenât sure if I have SZ or Delusional Disorder
the most scariest was when i was about 34 and had completely cut myself off even though i had the kids at home. ut the oldest 2 were there to look after the others and feed them.
i hardly ate, but put 8 stone on
i was in bed all the time except when we ran ou of food and i would walk half a mile to the store, which used to take me 7 minutes, it now took me 1 hour.
and it took 4 hours to get the food
but i totally had a meltdown in public a few weeks after and took pills and almost attacked a woman whose baby was screaming at the top of its lungs cos she couldnt be bothered to just pick it up n give it a cuddle.
i was in hospital overnight and they let me out but just gave me 3 x diazepam n said i was a bit depressed.
since then i havent been able to express anything to the doctors never been assessed until now im 20 years older and luckily can have nurses and a good doctor.
i saw people coming down from the ceiling when i was a kid and when i got my own house omg there were people everywhere
im actually feeling going back into the recluse thing i just know im gonna go n get in my bed n not come out. but ive told the nurse n she knws so i hope somat happens now.
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I believe it canâŚ
Thereâs few things scarier then feeling you are being watched constantly and having your mind read by a hostile group of people.
My first huge episode was traumatic. Took me about 3 years to regain sanity after that. Thinking back hurts a lot.
It was scary and intriguing st the same time
itâs more than PTSD it becomes memory lossâŚ
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As a child I remember being scaredâŚbut it hit its peak last yearâŚa bone armored monster roared ran at me and jumped down my throatâŚidk what that was about but â â â â âŚthat was the second time I was physicaly attackedâŚno third sorryâŚ
I had my 1st real episode 14 or so months ago tooâŚ
I had my first ever episode 14 months ago too. I guess that makes us ânoobsâ sort of. My first one was a big one. Not scary but massively crazy. Second one was scary as hell, esp afterwards. Third one was massive paranoia that required hops. I have been in remission (or whatever) for the last 5+ months. I hope I stay here.
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