I am curious, if you are willing to share.
I only had urges to harm others for about a month and a half on a certain injectable medication. That medicine did not work for me. I have never had that problem before or since being on that drug. The shot started to wear off after a couple of months and I was on another AP, one that didn’t cause such urges.
I was scared it was a new permanent symptom, and was worried I’d have to check myself in somewhere permanently to keep everybody safe. It was different than voices, voices you can ignore. Urges however are different. I also had really bad self-harm urges on the same med, went away over time.
Today I’m super safe and on Zyprexa without any side effects other than restlessness. Stepdad’s got a whole garage full of power tools that would have scared me to death back when I was on that previous medication. It’s just not an issue anymore thankfully.
Urges are terrible side effects to have. I had them, too. I celebrate with you finding relief and comfort!
When I was psychotic I was paranoid that I was offending everyone with every word I said. I was super neurotic about not saying anything in the wrong way to the point of complete delusion. Had some suicidal thoughts and had definitely been angry bc I thought people were threatening me, but I think I was too fearful and afraid of others to want to hurt anyone
I don’t think so. I was a danger to myself though. I would hike along the highways going place to place and was almost hit by a car twice. also the arrests for hiking along the highway, which ended up in about 2 months of jail time, while they tried to identify me, no charges from that stuck.
I’ve never been a violent person really, I got into a fight once when I was like 12, after some kid pushed me I punched him in the stomach. that’s my only violent act. but I wasn’t really sz at that age, I had a normal youth.
I’m like @agent101g and that is that I am ok on ziprexa. But I was not ok and a danger before that. In a fit of pain I tossed a year old baby on the carpet. I paid for that in guilt for years before I finally assured myself that she was alright.
That sounds unpleasant! I’m so sorry you were tormented in that way!
I can track with being a danger to myself. Sounds reckless. Sorry you struggled in that way!
I’m so sorry that happened to you and that you were oppressed by guilt for years! It sounds terrible!
I was a danger to myself. Have been suicidal many times. Have never been homicidal. That would be scary. Not that suicidal isn’t but I think homicidal is much worse.
I don’t hospitalize myself or let anyone know when I am suicidal but if I got homicidal I think I would let someone know and seek help.
@TomCat I think it would be smart to seek help then. Why not seek help when you’re suicidal?
I never wanted to hurt anyone and I never have. But I do easily get suicidal.
I can handle it own my own and I don’t want my wife to know if I am suicidal. Or anyone else for that matter.
I have had one serious attempt and survived. I learned my lesson. I can’t do that again to my son.
I once felt I was dangerous one day when I was with my mom.
And it just went away after one day?
Its gotten better but I don’t think its gotten away, sometimes I feel like it surges up again.
I’m sorry to hear this. It must be so hard.
I had anger and I was becoming verbally aggressive, but I was always turning my anger against me, so it was more depressing, than a danger to others… I suffered from a terrible guilt with all this…
Guilt eats away at the soul.
I was trying to escape the hospital because I believed I was going to die so didn’t want to be stuck in a hospital. The staff and police came after me and as they tried to get hold of me I bit the policewoman to break free
I used to get urges to jump on the underground track but that’s a danger to me not others