A guy was sat in a van across the street. I was certain I was under surveillance again. Got me really stressed and I started hearing things.
Was more disappointed and frustrated with all this. In my own flat, a controlled environment, I really minimise these experiences. But out in the real world they are waiting ready to kick my ass.
I know it will take me a while to regroup from this. Back to the quiet relief of isolation.
Paranoia freaks me out too. I don’t blame you for being unsettled. To be honest I rarely get it now though so I’m lucky in that sense.
Do something to take your mind off things. Order some junk food and watch something on TV.
I’m having a bad day so that’s what I’m doing.
Hey thanks for the reply buddy. Yeah have come back and got in pjs now watching trashy tv.
@anon20613941 At least you made the effort to go out even if you got stressed. Some days are like that. For me going out is something I know I should do because people(mental health staff especially) say it’s unhealthy to isolate and stay indoors all the time. The trouble is I still don’t connect with people on going out. Ie go in the cafe,order a drink and something to eat, sit on my own while I eat and drink,get up and walk back home. It’s not as though it’s doing anything for social isolation.
Thing is I totally hallucinated when stressed this time. That is so unusual for me. Am still pretty freaked out.
I get what you mean about solo excursions though.
I would get scared too. Just go to a place where you feel safe. I hope you feel better.
The more you go out the better. It hurts at first but after a while you start to build mental toughness and it gets easier and easier. However, this may be easy for me to say as I have a very supportive girlfriend and going out with her has helped me tremendously in getting more comfortable with being out in public.
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