I attempted in taking my life recently… Two weeks ago and damn I still feel the wound!
Not sure to say if am suicidal or just right idiot!
Anyway… After the events… My thoughts are still running that way; suicide. I wonder if this has it’s same way with others who’ve survived?
I’m very sorry you hit that darkness. Glad you pulled through. I can understand your thoughts still running that way… It’s going to take some time to stabilize. What ever darkness led you to this attempt isn’t going to clear up in a flash.
Now is not the time to be hard on yourself. You’ve just been through a traumatic event. I hope you do have some support to help you through this and help you back on your feet.
I made an attempt 6 years ago. Dec 30th. I ended up in emergency before I ended up in the psych ward. When I came too… my kid sister was traumatized. I felt like a huge looser for doing this to her… and it made me promise not to do this again…
but at the same time the emptiness… the hopelessness that I was feeling didn’t just fade because I survived. It took some time to get back on my feet and become happy for surviving. But it did set off a chain of events that helped me turn around.
NOW I am so very grateful I survived and so hugely grateful to be alive now. It didn’t happen all at once… it took time…
Please give yourself time to heal. Be good to yourself.
Yeah…
Giving my time to heal isn’t going to be easy. I, I, I believe it’s best for me to be dead. I think it to be the best idea in both form and reality. Why?
Because having schizphrenia isn’t something I wish I could say “I didn’t sign up to this!” lol how funny that may sound.
I’m glad to hear you gotten better through those worst times. Hope it’s like that for the rest of the way.
I’ve made plans before. I always chickened out. Once you do it you can’t undo it.
@Iceefloor I hope you reach out and find someone to talk to about this. Maybe call a suicide hotline? I tried a couple times and finally decided I must be here for a reason. I found hope. You can find hope too. Seek it with all your might and you will have a fighting chance against your will to take your life. good luck.
I am sorry you went through this.
Believe me when I tell you that this will turn around.