I know no one here is a “professional” but I’m certain that I had a bad reaction to medication and I’m frustrated. Two days ago I called the crisis line and told them Prozac was giving me suicidal thoughts and messing with my mood. The lady told me not to take anymore Prozac if it was making me suicidal, and that she would email my psychiatrist so that he would call me and tell me whether or not to continue taking it, but not to take it until then. So I got even worse when I withdrew from it. Now It’s out of my system, I feel clear-headed amazingly relieved. But everyone around me acted like it was helping. I think its because it lifted my mood/mania gave the perception that I was happy. If that makes any sense. But I dont know. I just know I feel relieved and I dont want to ever take it again.
So I’m thinking at 8:30 am I’m going to call to get a different telehealth psychiatrist at a private practice instead of state-funded practice. They also accept medicaid I am pretty sure and tell them I’m not having a good experience with my current situation. I called in crisis, the psychiatrist wont call me until my scheduled appointment on May 10th, after my SSI hearing, after I’ve withdrawn from Prozac, with no idea of what to do. Tried therapists online but they cant tell me anything cuz they aren’t seeing me in person.
It’s very frustrating…but I think there’s something wrong with him not even calling me, keeping things so short on the phone. I could file a grievance too. I’m considering it. At least so they know its upsetting to go through that. I got really really ill, and that’s not my fault. It was making me suicidal, I called and asked what to do and the psychiatrist never bothered to call me back.
I dont really know how to help with your question but when reading your story i was reminded of in my abnormal psych class he said the reason people can get more suicidal on meds is because the med is actually helping your mood but youre still depressed in your thinking so youre cognitively thinking more about suicide and have more drive to follow through
Yeah but I have never had such an anxiety/paranoia feeling as when I was on it. Everyone was in the mind that it was helping me, but I am naturally a very empathetic person. I don’t think it was, my emotions felt more blunted. I’m so confused. What’s normal anyways? I don’t know what my baseline is. I have never been that crazy as when I missed sleep/and a dose of medication. Then I doubled up on Abilify to counteract it thinking it would prevent me from getting worse, then I got worse anyways.
And I was told not to take it and that the psychiatrist would call within a few days. I dont know if I trust something that’s gonna throw me off like that. I was hallucinating from lack of sleep, but the whole thing was caused by the anti-depressant: chest pains, sleep issues, coffee, weed, stress. And the fact I couldn’t tell what was making me get worse seems to be an issue. So I couldn’t get a clear answer and still haven’t gotten an answer about whether or not to continue Prozac.
And the Prozac is already on its way to the dump. I threw it all out. If I can’t get a clear answer I’m not gonna bother with it; I had a bad reaction to Strattera which is an SNRI. Prozac is a SSRI. The SNRI made me hostile and angry. I got in a fight with my dad on it, and he almost attacked me. Everything is situational, other than the fact that these pills are making things worse anyways.
Can’t smoke weed. What if it was Serotonin syndrome? I feel like all the people who are supposedly helping are making it worse. Like my addiction counselor said it was ok to smoke weed and went on tangents in IOP about Big Pharma using medications and Purdue and Drug companies. Then my psychiatrist agreed to put me on Prozac even though he says I have schizophrenia not a mood disorder.
I don’t have schizoaffective or bipolar. Very very confused. No consistency here.
I left rehab because they would’ve tried to get me hooked on suboxone or methadone even though I’m not an opiate addict, but they hand them out like candy. I’m just really frustrated. Sorry I offend everyone with what I say. I dont think people have my best interests anymore they just want me medicated.
Very concerning, Hippie.
I would say if the state psychiatrist is trying to medicate you with Prozac, and your having that kind of reaction; I would stop the medication until I could see a private psychiatrist.
Yeah…nothing more depressing than something that is actually making you worse and everyone thinks it helps.
I’m counting down the minutes to call this private practice. At least get a second opinion for me, I hope they will take me as a patient…
And switching psychiatrists is stressful. It’s not like I’m court-ordered or anything, I have no criminal record. I volunteered to go to rehab because I wanted to get clean. I just think I’m doing too much stuff trying to get better…