So I called the crisis line. I can’t sleep again. It may be normal for people to feel off when they don’t get sleep but not me. I’m used to not sleeping. I’m done with the Prozac. I had to take two Abilify pills to level out. I’m never taking it again. My addiction counselor thinks I should take it because it helps control my impulses and is supposed to help with depression. But I don’t have depression and I’m a crying mess. The crisis worker said not to take Prozac until I talk to the psychiatrist. So I have to wait 1-2 days for him to call me. So I have no idea if I should take Prozac or not take it. The Crisis person said don’t take it, the addiction counselor advised to do what works best and that withdrawal is dangerous. That this is when it’s supposed to start working. I’m very confused, very conflicted and overwhelmed.
I typed that so freaking fast I am definitely that manic. I’m manic-more-than-normal. Just fired my betterhelp therapist for not replying to me yesterday after she asked how I was doing and I told her the truth. Not good ----- it would be nice if I were able to curse rainbows and unicorns. I feel evil and angry. I’m never angry. I see anger in my words and I’m not even angry. I’m crying but I’m enjoying it. What next, I’ll be laughing maniacally and not enjoying it. That never will happen. Or will it.
Everyone hates me. I’m an embarrassment. Poetry is dead. America is dead. The world blows. Blow me civilization. I love you, peace
I quit my antidepressant on my own and it was the best thing I ever did, after several months of withdrawals I felt better and I lost weight. HOWEVER, that does not mean you will have the same experience, be careful.
Like I have said before, you have to wean off an antidepressant very slowly. I was on 375 mg of Effexor, and it took me years to wean off it because of the heavy duty side effects
I just went down by 75 mg at a time, waited several months to stabilize at the new level and then reduced it by another 75
The effects of Prozac are starting to wear off. Gawd, after being on so many different ones I think its safe to say I can’t take anti-depressants. I probably never will be able to handle them. The psychiatrist hasn’t called me back yet.
I was on 20mgs of Prozac. It would’ve been less extreme withdrawal if I hadn’t had a return of impulsive behaviors, smoked weed hadn’t slept. I became a total complete different person. This is the most psychotic I have ever been/in years. So Prozac withdrawal, can’t smoke weed, must get sleep.
I have to learn better self-control. I can’t expect a medication to fix everything.
I’m waiting on a call back. I need to do some things to be productive; I really want to finish college there’s a community college, but I have never been able to hold a full time job. My illness is getting worse/I think because of the medication also. My lawyer says I have a strong case for SSI, that the only thing that could get in the way would be is that I’m in recovery from addiction. I told her I’m in IOP, and she said “What’s that? Are you on suboxone?” and I said no. I volunteered to join the program so that I can be more responsible about not relapsing. So on one hand I could be punished just for being honest about my drug use in the past. The thing is she’s the one who wanted it documented. So I’m wondering if I should let the idea of SSI limit me, and try and get a Grant from the state to finish community college, even if it ruins the chance I will get SSI because then they’ll say she can do college so she’s fine.
