Last night I was manic before I went to bed, as I was falling asleep I felt the psychotic depression like swirling around me…so maybe even 20mgs of Prozac a day isn’t safe for someone with schizophrenia? I am contemplating suicide for no reason today I just feel all the sorrow in the world. So it’s either no joy, no sorrow. I dont know how to have normal emotions. But I don’t know if this is normalizing my emotions or making me unhinged. I feel amazing, but my brain keeps saying slow down now slow down go to sleep. Im scared. I won’t be able to go to rehab if I take prozac, because I will not have the will or motivation to participate.
I don’t think I have felt anything in years. Or is that just the way the meds work? Maybe I should stop listening to Lana Del Rey.
Oh ■■■■ I think Im on the verge of a psychotic episode!!!
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How can you tell.
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hope you are feeling better…
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Make an appointment with your pdoc and see if you need a med adjustment
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I personally consider anti-depressant dangerous. I don’t know, but a lot of people commit suicide while on anti-depressants, and then there is always the argument did they do it because they already were depressed or did the ad have something to do with it?
I was on remeron(ad) a little while. It gave me a weird and false sense of lifted mood. I quit only after a few days because it made me feel estranged from myself.
I would get in touch with your doc asap and maybe discuss lowering your dose or switch to another ad. You are not supposed to feel this way, so that probably means you need to make a adjustment.
But whatever you do, don’t quit cold turkey, unless you only have been on them for a very short while. I would discuss getting gradually off them with your doc.
Hang in there, things can definitly get better.
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I feel the same it is defo not for everyone…
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You’re right I feel amazing though. The ringing in my head has cleared away. I am on Abilify 10mgs and Prozac 20mgs. Since I almost had a depressive psychotic episode I took two abilify’s and now I don’t think I should take anything anymore. I’m so unhappy with this situation but I’m like…feeling kind of like “euphoric” and Idk, different. I also keep thinking “I want to die” it keeps coming into my head. I told my case worker twice, I left a voicemail on the crisis line. They said its normal that since I’m withdrawing from stimulants that Im going through a bunch of emotions.
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Oh I see. Hopefully this will pass soon enough. Maybe there is something you can do that may distract a little.
I went through a really bad patch before and it passed so just saying there’s a chance for that for you too.
Defo go to a and e if you feel like you want to act on suicidal ideation.
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Thank you so much I really do hope it passes and I need to focus on myself. I’m questioning everything lately. Hopefully I can get out and go to a meeting soon and then I will go to rehab so that I can work on healing and recovery from all this. I try to be an inspiration to people not their downfall or a downer. So when I got crazy and posted so much I wonder if I am just hurting people that alone scares me. I tried deleting all my social media. I contacted the SZadmin to delete my account so Im wondering if I should. I don’t know that I triggered anyone on here, or at all I dont know. Its just that it always seems like my energy and vibes are reflected around others in person or online and Im afraid when I become manic I dont want anyone to take it the wrong way…
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Noo way,you came to the right place,people need to vent here,sall good
most people do that here from time to time, some more than others.
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