At first God was asking me to jump of high buildings. We had a halfway deal to show my faith in him I jump off a 15ft terrace which had my spine having fracture and swelling. Luckily I’m not paralized.
Now God wants me to court a girl to marry another girl which I don’t have lust for which he says is pure love.
What should I do?
Thanks in advance.
The voice started way before whenever I stop taking meds. But since I started to accept that I have paranoid sz only recently, the voice came back, more like full-blown, which includes God synchronicities.
God is also teaching me Christian values. And how to deal with people who have done wrong to me the right way.
We have this saying in the Philippines that if God can forgive, why can’t us people as well? Which fits my current situation.
I posted here because God says I post here.
its not God my friend, these things can take many forms and they are not true, what you are saying goes right back to the garden of eden and the serpent.
It’s your illness. I’m sorry it’s not real, but I can relate. When I had my relapse I didn’t hear God, but I believed he was commanding me to choose whether I lived or died. I was forced to make a decision. I ended up trying to take a gun from a cop in an attempt to kill myself, because God was commanding me. Nothing is going to happen if you don’t comply. Talk to your psychiatrist. I know how real it seems, but you have to trust that it’s your illness tricking you. I’ve learned over the years that the greatest weapon is reality testing. Maybe a way to reality test this voice is to talk to your priest/pastor and ask if God would really ask you to do those things. Use other people that you trust, but trust what they tell you. Good luck. 
Hey thanks guys. Those mean a lot.
Yeah, I’m kinda afraid of the consequences if I don’t comply. It’s hard not to believe it’s God when there are also synchronicities that happens that suggests it’s really God. Okay so may it’s really due to my illness. I do remember it narrating a lot of plots against me that didn’t happen after I jumped off our terrace.
Every time I talked to one of my Psychiatrist about what is happening to me, the voices somehow stop for about 2 hours then it returns.
So I’ll try not to be afraid to not comply.
Thanks for the support guys. Those simple advice seem to help A LOT!
Thanks for the advice SunGirl. The voices has stopped by about 90%!
I had this issue as well. “God” is just a form of a voice due to the illness. It could be anything but your core belief focus is currently on God so it takes this form.
For me the God voice would command or advise me to do good things mostly and tell me a lot of things that could be true but really were not.
What I learned is Good or Bad just don’t listen.
it is not god. look what happened the last time you listen to your voice, you fractured your spine for christ’s sake. do not obey the voices in your head. they are not there to help you. it is just splinters of your own mind turning in on you. they have no power over you other than to make you depressed. that’s it in a nutshell. do not listen. it is not god.
God does not tempt people to jump off buildings, and to injure themselves. That’s the devil trying to convince you it’s God in an attempt to discredit God. test the spirits.
Courting one girl to marry another? sounds like a head game humans play, or demonic. It’s not God. God will just lead you directly to your mate…there should be no one else involved with that, not in any romantic or sexual way…
it is not god…that is rubbish.
ignore … the negative voices.
act only… on the positive voices.
take care
It’s been 2 days since Sungirl’s advice and the voices are 98% gone.
I haven’t taken risperdal as well in the past 2 days the side effects are too much for me.
Also for some reason my lost zest for my job is back.
Whenever the voices attempt to sneak in I say to myself, “the consequences aren’t real”, the voices stop right there.
I’m back to my previous state though, being an Atheist, which I was since 12yo. My parents are very much against it though, but my siblings aren’t either way.