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Utterly Terrified

My birthday is in 18 days
I don’t want to turn 22, yet
I am no where near where I wanted to be at this point in my life
I have accomplished nothing since last year
I have only gotten worse
I have only withdrawn more from reality
I have also gotten fatter
I am almost at my highest weight again, despite my best efforts
A silly thing to be so overwhelmed over, right?
But I’m very upset
I never want to eat, again
The self-loathing is taking over
The suicidal tendencies crawl their way back into my cognitive process
I feel so terrible and terrified for what lies ahead

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You’re still very young. There’s a lot more life waiting for you. Don’t give up just yet. There’s a lot to live for and you have yet to do so much.

I’m only 23 and I agree with minnii. 21 to 22 was awful for me but half way through that year I started to try to take charge of my life. I have my dips and rough days but you can keep going. I have been where you are, in my own way and you can come out of it. I know you can. I believe.

I’m 57. Just make sure you don’t reach 57 and wonder what you did with your life.

You are still very young @Bunny and to be honest with you at 30 I still don’t know what i want to do with my life and I’m ok with that. I don’t think most people know anyway. I tend to go with the flow. I also understand about the weight issue and I am not sure what to suggest just please do not starve yourself. Try to eat healthy and see if they can change your meds as well?

you are amazing, an amazing 22 yr old to be, save me some cake :birthday: lol and please dont stress about it, just live your life the best you can and do your best bc in the end thats all we can ever do, take care