I used to ruminate about my psychosises when I was younger. Paradoxically I think the zyprexa made me get stuck on thinking about things, but at the same time they did get me out of psychosis. I don’t know, maybe zyprexa induced OCD. Now I take supplements like Inositol that saves me from much of the ruminations.
I guess I’m thinking that even if life is not what it appears to be you still lose when you think about it, trying to prove something different. I mean where would it get me? Why would someone want to simulate a poor life being ill and taking debilitating meds. It doesen’t make sense. I mean who would want to simulate suffering. Anyway, I just try to live life simple and not think about stuff now.
I don’t believe I live in the Truman show and matrix theory has been bothering me less and less. I think it was caused by introspection and thinking too much and severe dissociation after I got sick. My senses were messed up which caused my thinking to be messed up.
I guess the question is: is the universe fundamentally digital ie information or is it based on real physical laws?
Sometimes I think about the holographic principle and black holes and simulation theory, but being average in intellect, I realize it won’t go anywhere ever. I won’t find that esoteric knowledge useful or I won’t be famous or successful. It’s mainly for personal knowledge and reasons.
I don’t think anyone knows how the universe will end – even experts cannot agree on free will.
For me, I experience the delusion of reincarnation like an infinite time loop that I cannot figure out how it works (flawed immortality). If multiple universes exist, then why are my childhood school grades and life exactly the same and why do I “wake up” in my early twenties every time like eternal return/eternal recurrence with schizophrenia. Doesn’t make sense. I often evoke ‘aliens’ and stuff or some weird explanation like cloning or time travel and sim theory and stuff, which probably don’t exist or is unlikely.
I also think about determinism and how the universe works.
I think it boils down to complexity of the universe and how complex the brain is (more complex than any other thing in the universe!). I may have memory problems and I hallucinate things at night when dreaming and cannot trust my memory anymore. Some would call them astral dreams or astral projection…astral realm…
I guess Truman show makes sense to me only because I’m completely censored online (schizophrenia?) and society and life has ghosted me or I feel blacklisted from life and work and society and feel completely ignored. I probably did it to myself and I guess it’s better than being harassed or made fun of online and in the real world. I really just fell off the map, I guess haha.
The only good news is I’m cutting down my drinking of energy drinks which exacerbates my condition.
I chatted with Bing AI about it to try to ascertain some sense of it. I questioned my beliefs too.
To be honest, the ideas you ponder are no more outlandish than any orgainsed religion belief system.
I have pondered the same things as you except for astral travelling. I ignore the ‘supernatural’ elements frankly, living in the world scientifically and experentially.
Dreaming is hallucinating by the way. Reading a book makes people imagine and hallucinate the images in the mind in reality.
I wouldn’t stress about any of it, or even overthink it and get consumed by it.
So what if any of the ideas you suggest are true or not? because none of this ‘philosophy’ will alter how you actually live.
They might make an interesting discussion at a dinner party or a good friend to chat about with, but try not to hold onto such things like some religious zealot does.
Drink tea, wash dishes, clean the house, go for a walk, do a hobby and live. The thoughts and ruminations can only ever be based on belief and belief isn’t the same as truth.
That’s good! Some of us went full throttle or turbo into simulation theory haha. There’s no proof. It probably started out as a feeling or that the ‘world changed’ for some of us. Even if there was proof, there’s an argument the computer programmers or creators could cover it up or change it. I mean, I don’t even believe in glitches in the matrix or sim that I hear about online even from people I know. That’s crazy to me. For me, things have to follow the laws of physics still…!
Aliens have broken the known laws of physics and expended unimaginable amounts of energy to cross the universe just to torment me in particular and stick a probe in my anus while I am asleep.
Unfortunately this wasn’t so easy for my recent delusional thoughts on extraterrestrials, as I actually felt them raping me. The mind can produce unimaginable horrors, but so can evil people.
@ OP. If it helps, Michio Kaku said it’s impossible for a hypothetical powerful quantum computer to simulate a room full of trillions of atoms or molecules. It gave me a relief.
I mean, I still think it’s possible. I think it could be done with a supermassive black hole and holographic principle. But what do I know…
I have books on the subject I have yet read.
I like and admire Michio Kaku and he’s pretty out there.
So basically, even Michio Kaku said it’s impossible.
And it all depends on which interpretation of quantum mechanics you believe. It seems even more impossible if you believe in parallel universes. But the odds we live in a sim seem to be less than 50/50, which is the ultimate upper bound, and unlikely. It would be the peculiar or weird case in my opinion…
