(TW) I see no point in living like this anymore

I was in your position,
but i no longer am.
There is hope.
You have to push yourself
to get out of your comfort zone
and live life.

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Start with some small changes even if they seem insignificant. You can’t go on in this state. You have to change something so start small. Try writing in a journal every day… try to articulate some of your thoughts and feelings and build a skill.

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@anon67051439

Its scary
You need help
If you carry on then you might not have any control to turn this around
You might be bed bound etc
Keep on at the doctors

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Ive gained 2 pounds this week just from having a bit of chocolate and cake
Its a downward spiral but i can lose it again from exercise , getting out the flat and not eating anymore ā– ā– ā– ā–  for a while.

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I think it’s about finding your ikigai. Your reason to get up in the morning. I would work on that.

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You still can breath, eat, sleep and poop. You take your medication regular and i think you sort of tidy and have a sense of selfhygiene. I mean you can do all that, some can’t sleep, can’t eat, can’t breath as usual people and can’t poop. Concentrate of what you can do and you are interested in.

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I was in a similar state for a couple months—I experienced cotards delusion, and my body and my mind just felt dead. All I did was pay in bed for two months. Meds brought me out of it, along with deliberate choices despite how I felt. Making making those choices is not easy. Sometimes when I was stuck in bed, I would literally think ā€œrebel!ā€ in my own head, as though I was rebelling against my own state of mind/condition and I’d force myself up. Sometimes I’d take a short walk for as long as I could manage (which was usually halfway down our neighborhood street).

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My regular dr can’t change my meds, he is not allowed, only increasing or reducing dose but not try a new med like Vraylar.

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I’ve probably had more episodes than you (6)

But somehow on and off meds I never get negatives.

I feel for you man. If you have no positives maybe try a lower dose of meds if they are creating the negatives?

Maybe buy a standing desk so you can stand and watch tv etc? Burn more calories but bad for knee joints for too long.

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I have tried and failed. I think on the lowest dose for my sz.

Meds isn’t everything, you can try probiotics, be it through natural means or supplements. you might not lose all the weight but I believe you can lose a significant amount

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Nice. I usually take 1 to 2 mg as a prn.

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Maybe it would be easier for you to get out of bed and do stuff if you had some people around you. I’m thinking join a mental health club that you can go to. Maybe get a personal trainer to help you out with excersise a couple of times a week. Maybe there is some communal work out programme in the city for people with disabilities you could go to.

I know it’s hard to motivate yourself when you have to do things on your own. When you don’t have a reason to get out of bed because your entire day is open and no one depends on you it’s much harder than if you have a appointment to be somewhere with someone.

I’m much more diciplined the days I work. The days I don’t work I frequent a diner in the city. I’m a regular there. I don’t need to show up there, but I just got into the habit of doing so, making it a goal for the day.

But it all starts with yourself. You have to want to do it even if it feels like hell. Maybe ask yourself why you are motivated to come to the forum most days and interact and try to use this to motivate yourself to do other things as well. I’m not saying it’s easy. You will really have to push yourself, but a lot of it has to do with habits. Once you make a habit of something it comes easier.

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That’s me at my day job right now. It’s a slog.

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Actually my friends always want me to hangout with them. My parents want me to walk and go shopping with them. My brothers also want me to hangout with them. I still do nothing and stay in bed.

I think I said this before but you just have to force yourself to do things. Everyone has things they don’t want to do like work, school and errands but they have to do them anyway. I have things in my life I don’t like and don’t want to do but I do them anyway. It doesn’t matter if I don’t feel like doing them.

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I want to get out of bed but I am not able to.

I don’t understand how that can be. I don’t know what else to say that can help. Hopefully you can change meds someday and that will help.

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If your only concern was to exercise and eat healthy you would ace it. Well, at least, one of the two.

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