Tw food tampering

[gene]

A re-occuring delusion I have is that my food is being tampered with. I get angry if I have a negative reaction after I eat something.

This last time I ate something my mom brought home and I couldn’t get out of bed for two days. I had suicidal ideation. I was 100% certain she tampered with the food.

Really, I just to need to vent. I know I’m being paranoid but my mom is a narcissist and it can be difficult living with her. I got angry and yelled at her- nothing explicit but more the “I’m moving the first chance I get” type rant.

I even thought of breaking sobriety to show her not to ‘mess’ with me. Like that would be retribution for that. Feeling trapped by my circumstances is something I feel all the time. The food tamper delusion isn’t helping.

[Rainstorm]

Why couldnt you get out of bed? Was your stomach hurting?

[Wave]

@gene

food is being tampered with

I have the same recurrent paranoid thinking

I wouldn’t call it delusional

At least not on meds

[gene]

It’s a persecutory delusion. Thinking others are out to harm you.

[Wave]

Maybe it’s a delusion for me but on meds I still have insight

Off meds I have zero insight

Yeah definitely persecutory in nature

[gene]

It was a depressive episode

[Truemist8]

My last hospitalisation I had stopped eating and drinking because i thought the food and water had been poisoned.

Not drinking and eating made me worse.

Actually all of my hospitalisation i remember I stopped eating and drinking.

In Sweden one of the staff was force feeding me.(not sure if that’s legal)
I thought the corn flakes looked so golden.
Golden corn flakes!

Thankfully I’m eating well now.
And drinking.

It’s incredibly painful to think your mother is trying to poison or kill you.

Hope you will feel better soon and recover from this.

Have you told your dr?

[gene]

I’m glad you have levity regarding such a heavy topic- golden corn flakes!

@Truemist8

It’s incredibly painful to think your mother is trying to poison or kill you.

I did tell my nurse practitioner who prescribes my meds. I broke down and cried, I felt the immense pressure on my chest.

Also glad that you are eating and drinking, it is a necessity for survival

[2Waynez]

When I first got sick I thought the government was putting cocaine in the water. I took a bath and started having arrhythmias. I thought it was because I drank the water and the water was absorbing in my skin in the bath. I thought it only happened to me everywhere I went. Eventually it went away.

[Truemist8]

Thank you @gene

[irrelevant]

i can relate. whenever i get water from my moms house i cant lay it down and walk away from it because i am afraid she will poison it. it has been like this for probably 3 or 4 years. the water is for a special purpose tho (which i dont want to mention). i dont drink it and she knows this. so i do trust her to cook because i dont think she will poison my food. just the water. i am just afraid she will put something in the water and i cant let that fear go. i just deal with it by never leaving her alone with the water.