it’s like a fear driven thing, for me, to think negative. like the negatives will multiply and be fruitful if I don’t think about them and try to deal with them, so I better harp on them.
my mom tells me often that I am very lucky. I feel lucky to be alive now. years ago when the sz was rampant I didn’t.
I feel lucky that I have you for friends. and I have a job. and I now have job skills, pretty darn good ones.
it’s like grab opportunities for growth means build up the good, not build down the negative all the time. for me, this is difficult.