I am on a lot of medications for symptoms but every now and then something gets through. I was at the counter picking up one of my meds and i noticed someone sitting down staring at me. I started thinking, “can he hear my thoughts?” , “is he going to steal my medicine?” and “he’s going to follow me home and hurt me”. I tried walking an indirect path home hoping to lose whoever i thought was following me. I went up a few blocks turned left and several other directions to lose him. When i finally got home, i was on high alert.
I know how you feel about something getting through every now and again. Luckily I get all my medications mailed to me and I don’t have to go to the pharmacy. Just one less thing.
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I hope you are feeling better now that you are home and safe.
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I’ve been trying take more responsibility for self managing my meds. The UW pharmacy is Ok. It’s not in a busy store so it makes it easier to go.
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If I think someone is following me I will walk for a bit, then abruptly do a u-turn, stop and stare right at them…if they are really there,they get all flustered and you can watch as they do all kinds of saving face tactics. It’s kind of funny.
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I still get some symptoms. I just remember when I was completely insane and feel thankful for hearing a few voices a day just for a second or feeling paranoid like once a day and then realizing its just a delusion. Compared to my unmedicated state at this time last year, i am 99% recovered. Like last night while opening the fridge after going on a date with a guy and making out with him, the voices had some stuff to say about my bisexuality. But it was only for a moment and then it passed. Im still paranoid about my my family reading my texts messages, i keep my phone on me at all times.
But I function extremely highly and that keeps me from letting schizophrenia get to me. I just make As, have lots of friends who I see daily and keep focused on training for powerlifting, I will be competing in the fall, the trainers think I have potential and want me to train for a few months on the team (personal training right now) before I compete. Right now I already have class 1 dealifts and squats but they could me master class with more training and my bench is stuck.
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A little paranoia is normal. Not everybody in the world is nice and has pure motives.You may have been wrong about this guy. You may have been right. Here’s an old saying I used about a month ago at work while talking to a co-worker.
'It’s better to err on the side of caution".
Do you live in a bad neighborhood or something where you have to worry about people attacking adults in broad daylight?
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Thanks everyone, i do feel better now. I just get so paranoid about people staring at me.
Some people are just rude.
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I know how you feel! I use the drive through, because I hate being around people and lines are the worst.
i haven’t been to the pharmacy in a few months due to a broken ankle but I am not looking forward to when my ankle is healed and the paranoia comes back