Trigger warning I'm terrified

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What I want to talk about has to do with politics but I mainly want to talk about my feelings as they relate to my schizophrenia.

The new president elect has me terrified for our future. I believe God communicates with me through social media. God tells me that America will implode and Russia will take over.

It scares me that people are doing hateful things in the name of the president elect. I feel people are in jeopardy if they are not white Christian males.

I understand there is a checks and balances system in place but I don’t think that will matter.

It’s hard for me to organize all of my thoughts on this. I just really fear there will be a lot of suffering in the future and the end is near. I’m not the only one who is terrified as that’s why there are a lot of protests.

Please don’t turn this into a political discussion but give me your experience when you thought the end was near. :sun_behind_small_cloud:

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I believed in 2008 that a nuclear war between USA and China was imminent. None of it was true though, it was only my delusions. After seeing a pdoc and going on AP’s for a while my delusions went away and my perception returned to a fairly normal state and I did not live in a constant state of fear anymore.

I’d suggest seeing your pdoc soon and talk about the delusions you’re experiencing. It sounds like it might be time for an adjustment to your meds. Also I’d suggest leaving the social media sites that sounds like are triggering you. I closed my facebook account years ago and I don’t regret it at all.

Keep in mind, there’s a lot of trolls and other people using coercive persuasion techniques on the internet for various reasons. People with mental illness tend to be much more sensitive to these coercive techniques being used.

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Thank you for the response. Trust me I do understand trolling on Facebook. But there are reliable news sources reporting scary things.

I did see my pdoc actually yesterday and told him about this and also that at night the voices are hard to distinguish from the tv. I’m doing so well right now in every other aspect. The lines just become blurred sometimes between reality and fantasy. Thanks for your concern though.:sunny:️

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Try to be more detailed in your thread title. Just saying “I’m terrified” is rather alarming. Thus triggering

Hope you feel better

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I can relate to that very much. In my country made up of diverse ethnicity, I was particularly terrified when the minority Chinese was being condemned by the majority Bumiputra after the last election. What funny is that I too started a thread on local forum seeking for help.
But from the responses of normal individuals in that thread, it looked like I was the one who had concerned excessively over the matter. Those Chinese individuals did not care at all.

EDIT: I did get response from these normal individuals asking me to leave the country and migrate to somewhere else.

(Sorry for my poor English).

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One time after a hard drunk I somehow figured out through my brilliant logic that both the U.S. and Russia had pushed the launch buttons on their nuclear missiles, and those missiles were on the way. I was wondering if it would do any good to crawl under the bed.

As for Trump, I’m starting to realize what his campaign against Mexican immigration means. Families will be broken up. People will lose the already abject jobs they had. We’re seeing the worst side of America in that.

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I don’t think you have anything to worry about, @SunGirl. Governments come and go, and no country in the world wants a world war. We’re in the midst of a global economic crisis and wars are expensive.

I agree that you should stay away from those websites for a while.

A lot of people are dealing with this, you’re not alone.

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It’s Been A-while Since e(Y)e’ve Been in that Darkness … ,

Think of it as You Relating to a Lacookarocha , They Eat , Sleep , Hide , Live , In tha Shadows … ,

Tha Weak Ones , One Would Say , , , More so Misunderstood … ,

They Get Hungry and Search for food , Terrified of that Spray … ,

Terrified of Getting Crushed … ,

Terrified of tha Light , Running at full Speed from one Shadow to tha NexXxt … ,

Except for when e(Y)e’m Sleeping on tha Floor and a Mini Lil 15 Yr Old Laughing Lacookarocha Runs Across my Leg , Laughing as She is Saying , , , “i know I’m not supposed to do this hahaha” … ,

and e(Y)e Flip tha Covers and get Grossed out but DON"T KILL … ,

So SInce Sometimes we Get Frightened L(Y)Ke Mini Buggy Bugs , Think of it as thus … ,

Gods Hands Are Pretty Large … ,

Full of Love and Gifts … ,

He’s Naught Grossed Out (by) Any Means … ,

He Wants to See Us Happi , It’s Jus We Got Some Shuzz to Learn in tha Shadows For a Lil While , , ,

Hope that is a Lil Helpful … … …

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My world ended when I became schizophrenic. I suppose the world will end one day. Everything here comes to a end.

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You aren’t meant to be afraid. That fear is meant for the men and women in uniform. They have the duty and privilege to protect us from any catastrophe. Allow others to fear and to take action for you.

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No matter how much that the people like the president they elected and they think he’s a great guy. The other side are going to trash him and say he is the worst human on earth and he’s the anti-christ. That’s the way its been since George Washington and it will never change. Sorry, is this too political? I’m not sure.

The apocalypse has been predicted since the Egyptians built the pyramids or even before that. Its been predicted in many shapes and forms and for many various reasons and in many different countries all over the world.throughout history. The Republicans thought Bill Clinton was the worst president ever and they hated him. And the democrats thought that George Bush was the worst president ever.

Try to look at this objectively, you have no control over politics so don’t worry about it. You’re worrying will not affect Trump, he will bomb who he wants to or kick out half the people in the U.S if he could. Your worrying and fear about this will not change what happens so try to just concentrate on your own life and do the basics and try to live a good, honest, life for your self and don’t worry about other people

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I feel ya. When I saw the news of the attack on the WTC I was terrified, I honestly thought there would be a global war, that it would be the end of the world. I thought I, my friends and family would be conscripted, I feared nuclear attacks, chaos, armageddon. Every time I hear of another big event that fear kicks in. Many of the people in power are corrupt, greedy and power hungry, that much is true. But it wouldn’t benefit them to start something like what is worrying you, I really do believe that even the most evil people in the world would not want such things to happen, that it would not further their cause.

I try to avoid the news as much as possible… I remind myself that one person can’t change the world, I already know there is an awful lot of horrible stuff going on in the world, and being bombarded with it through the tv, newspapers and social media isn’t going to make any difference to what is going on, it only causes me pain, and exposing myself to it is not healthy. People like us are so sensitive that we are much more easily frightened and hurt by negative things, and I don’t think there is anything wrong with avoiding those things, I do not believe we are obliged to listen to or read about all the crap that goes on when all it does is harm us.

My advice is to try to avoid exposing yourself to all the negative stuff that is going on, and to try to focus on the good things, like the small acts of kindness that one person does for another, like the beauty of nature and the joy of music, spontaneous moments of kindness and joy, to try to remind yourself of the best parts of humanity.

When I get overwhelmed the with fear and sadness of the bad things that happen in this world, I try to change my perspective, to actively look for kindness and beauty, to remind myself that most people are good and well meaning, and that since I cannot change or control what happens in the world, the best thing I can do is look after myself and try to surround myself with good things and good people, and to try to take comfort and pleasure in the little things, like a smile from a stranger, or a kind word or gesture. I think that no matter what our leaders are doing, that us ordinary folks are more good than bad, and that is what I try to focus on. Sorry this is a bit long and rambling, I know it’s far from easy to think your way out of fear, but I hope this helps even a little.

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I feel very scared too, but I am trying to stay positive. I hope you are feeling ok.

To kind of ride off what 77nick77 said, don’t let your fear control you. Try to turn it into something positive. Like art, paint how you feel or write a song, or record your thoughts in a journal.

Take care :v:

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