Today is not a good day for me. I hear the tv talking about me. It’s tiring to know the whole country is listening or watching my thoughts. I’m afraid to get my own place because I believe someone is going to come kill me because of my thoughts. I can’t be active with my children because this medicine makes me drowsy. I don’t want to ask my doctor for a med change because I believe she wants to see me hurt too. Bottom line I’m feeling suicidal. I can’t take this anymore.
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There’s no way your doctor wants to see you hurt. She wants to help. She wants to be good at her job, which again, means helping you.
Please talk to your doctor. Your kids need you healthy and sane.
I’m sorry you’re having a rough day.
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Just keep it in your mind that you are not on TV! No one is watching you! No one knows your thoughts! No one is trying to kill you! Keep reinforcing that to yourself! Tell yourself that you’re going to use common sense and ignore the paranoia. Whatever you have to do to comfort yourself and you will be fine!
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You really need a med change. I hope you do it in the end-the med change . I don’t think your pdocs trying to hurt u.
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They probably are not trying to hurt me but my mind tells me that I can’t trust them. And from what I hear that’s what makes me think I can’t trust them. I’m so scared. I don’t want anyone hurting me or even just bothering me. I want peace.
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I’m sorry to hear that your mind is tellling you these things that’s really hard to deal with.
Maybe it’s also cos of bad side effects you’ve possibly had in the past like anxiety. I can’t guarantee that the next med will remove the voices n delusion symptoms even HOWEVER there IS a chance that they could. And that’s what might be good to cling on to and then it will be validated that your pdoc is not trying to harm you. Yes there may be annoying side effects but this is the best we’ve gt atm…
It may come down to u eventually going to take clozaril which is a really powerful ap.
Hope things wrk out for ya
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Thankyou. I just want to cry because my mind is really holding onto this scary delusion 
I really hear the tv talking about me and when my sisters are next to me I hear the people on their phones talking about me. I hear it so loud and clear. This is so scary
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You’ll get peace if you trust your doctor. You may need clozaril if it keeps going like this
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I know it’s really scary 
Hopefully this will come to an end or at least significantly reduced so then you will see oh well that was all fake for sure. Wen u get a med change.
Good luck 
I wish you the best
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Ok what are the side affects of clorazil?
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Thankyou so much
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It really depends on dosage I think, but drooling at night is common
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Are you in therapy?
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@anon55704218, your pdoc does not want to see any harm come to you. Your pdoc wants to help you. That’s what pdocs are for. To help you. Don’t believe your paranoia or your voices. The tv talking about you is delusions of reference. I know it seems so real, but, it is not. It is delusions. It is schizophrenia tricking your mind. I know. I experience that too.
Please call your psychiatrist and get help. She wants to help you.
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I ask that because it seems like it is the last resort. Why is it the last resort?
No I’m not because I stay in the suburbs but all of the groups are in the city and I have no way to get there.
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Do you have good days ever?
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It’s just the most potent AP.
You’ll need weekly blood tests for it for one year and then it’s once a month
I have days that are better but I don’t have good days because of the voices around me.
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Have you tried many APs?