The feeling of this forum is not that strong anymore since I have lost my figurative heart-- it is gone. I show no affection for anyone here, and start thinking about myself.
I would love to be among you, if that is possible. I have no heart for all of you anymore. What left is a suspicious mind.
What changed exactly?
There was always inner voice telling me what to do. It seemed to me its goal was to help me to become independent, and not relied on it. It is successful now as I could do things myself without listening to its advice. Therefore the inner voice just left.
What does that have to do with these forums? You mean you are now heartless?And cold? Is it US doing something wrong? Or YOU? No offense, I’m just trying to understand. Is what you are saying is that you lost your ability to feel?
I am not quite sure though. Not just this forum, other several forums too. Maybe time for me to live in the physical world, not the cyber world? It is now the opposite- Last time I have similar feelings with real persons, but could discuss things with an open mind on the Internet; Things changed with unknown reason, I feel better to talk face-to-face to real persons than on the forum. I know it is not machine who responds, but every real persons behind the computer---- but who knows this maybe my symptoms got worse?
Thank you 77nick77 for your willingness to join my thread. I am sorry that I did not know the neighbor talks in front of your house was actually part of your symptoms-- I did not point out that as many others did— but I tried to say something “soothing” to your ear by incorrect explanation(the territory/ privacy issues).
I do not know about these heart matters at all, but I think that this forum is good for me, sometimes I just do not know what you are thinking, but before leaving the forum you may ask:
Well, Plumber, you see that face-to-face interaction is good and I agree. I like coming on here but my goal is to make physical friends too… One thing I can say about these forums is they’re rewarding. To help someone or to support someone. I have learned a lot by coming on here. Good luck and just do what is best for YOU. If finding a friend is helpful to you then do it.
No, I am not leaving. Even I cannot understand myself precisely. Thank you for the video.
Thank you for telling me that. I think the problem now is I lack the ability to focus on details such as the tiny characters on the touch screen. And I want to have daily life discussion among the fellow members here, not just medication and symptoms. I particularly appreciate the topic of discussion on travelling, or similar chat like these. I think somehow it helps to prepare us one day to return to the society.
Wow, then you should talk to mjseu more. As you well know he is well- traveled. But other people occasionally travel too. Surprised just flew on a plane for the first time in his life and he is 27(28?). I never flew on a plane before I got sick. Or even been out of California before I got sick… And I haven’t traveled for a long time but I’ve flown coast to a coast a few times and up to Canada once in my disease.
Don’t talk yourself out of a great resource. You don’t have to have us in your heart to benefit from and contribute to this website.
This forums helps me a lot,you should learn to let it have that place in your heart too it brings out the best in me this forum. I have went to college today to try and proove a schizophrenic can try their best to do well,only have an hour left and college is finished and its been nothing but calm vibes and the tutors being leniant with me.