Tired of your name

I’ve never like my given name, I didn’t receive it until almost 1 year of age due to foster child and adoption. I have no idea what name I was called before the legal one. I’ve been searching for it. I have legally changed my name three times but it’s still wrong. I don’t know what to call myself but. Will find the correct name.

Where I worked-once upon a time-which was a prison and I a prison guard-the inmates anointed me with a very cute rhyming nickname. My late sister just loved it! and would giggle and try to tell everyone that was my true name. Maybe, it really did fit me. Giving me that name by those inmates probably saved my “tail” many times. My supervisors did not approve. They thought it was a sign of almost too much familiarity-a very untruth. They just refused to see what was actually going on there. To this day, the name holds great memories and term of endearment for me. That is one on the names that is me. Sometimes, true perceptiveness comes from unexpected places. Take care, my friend!

Excuse the opinion, but that’s one of the first things that struck me as odd about the mental health system when I first got in it. People changing their names. I can’t recall knowing anyone personally who had changed their name until I was in my first psyche ward. A nurse had everyone calling her “Pepper”. When I moved into Soteria the girl counselor wanted to be called “Sparrow”. And the guy counselor wanted to be called “Adrian”, instead of his given name, Victor". The cute girl client wanted to be called "Lannette’ instead of “Annette”. I thought it was all kind of strange to have such a concentration of “namechangers”.
But the funniest part was that I wanted to change MY name too!

I know a girl who I think has schizotypal personality and she changes her name very often. She has issues. I think she has other things than just schizotypal going on. She’s very pretty and dresses and grooms in a feminine manner and she totally shaves her legs and shows them with shorts and skirts yet insists on being transgender.

I don’t get it.

But yeah she has a real name which she takes offense at. I accidentally called her by her real name at school and she seemed bothered by it. Whoops. I forgot which of the four names she has gone by is the correct one.