Have you ever been talked to or been influence to injured yourself of to kill yourself? I always been told to cut my ■■■■■ , to jump from building or to drown myself in the seas. There are lot of things been touching me, messing up my memory, or even told me i got lot of special power. Eventually they will just told me that I wont be happy. Got lot of voices telling me they love me…then it will be just they hate me…then they will just said they want me to be miserable. Now i just really like to see voices to be in miserable state. How i wish they to be cry and suffer. Or even die in-front of me. Just like to hear they shout and cry. To see how painful they will act!!! Even now i can hear a very stupid laugh. Is like i don’t even care about voices…but i just like or love them to die. Wish i can have a happy life. Before that, i just hope them to die up first. Do anyone experience this? Like thinking a way to kill those voices or images? I really like to find out voices and if could try to terminate their life and see if i can hear back their voices. Is like a way to stop my suicide thought first…so i can see whether is real or not…if suicide is to escape then can we find another way? What is the recommended way?
Yeah, used to be a lot. Was constantly threatened to do so with things that never happened. That’s because the voices have absolutely no power. They’re just noise that you can learn to ignore. The only power they have over you is the power you give them.
If you want to “hurt them” or “escape them” (the voices, that is), the best way is through working with your treatment providers to find medications and therapies that work. This is the best use of your energy. After two decades of doing this I am mostly free from hallucinations and delusions and live a life I enjoy with my wife and daughter. I’m nothing special - if I can do this anyone can.
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i get this a lot too… really painful stuff…
You’ve got a lot of options in getting the voices under control. Meds are probably the best bet.
They are a part of your brain though, they can be controlled. It takes a lot of time to figure them out, but it is possible. Eventually what I found worked was to not give them even an instant of attention, get used to them being and learn to focus like they aren’t there at all. Do that and even if they don’t go away you’ll still be golden. I’m guessing if you can do that they will go away though.
Voices get quieter and change over time.
Stress management is a big one as well.
Sounds like you’ve got some serious form of psychosis going on. Whether you stay with your rents or can find some section 8 or cheap housing. You can try to get on disability and that will give you the financing needed to buy time to sort out recovery/management/coping.
Other than that I’d suggest you stick around the forum. It’s a great place to learn and socialize. I’ve made many friends on here.
Buck up Brian! Take you mental experience back.
Oh yeah. The demons’ main goal is to have me kill myself. I try to keep that in mind and do the exact opposite of what they tell me.
Usually they don’t directly tell me to kill myself, they just continuously tell me things that make me want to do so.
It can be very hard to ignore them but I do my best. Take what the voices say with a grain of salt, it’s all just noise, that’s what I say.
A couple of times,usually they tell me to injure or hurt others,it takes some getting use to.
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Initially, anyway. If you need meds – or a med adjustment – get it done ASAP. Most ERs will respond if you call and tell them what’s going on, or just trot yourself through the door.
In the long run, however, the CBTs (cognitive behavioral therapies of one sort or another) need to be ingested so that you can use the tools therefrom to observe to recognize such thoughts as “just thoughts” so as to acknowledge that and then question their validity.
For my money, REBT is the best and most easily acquired. But there are others, including schema therapy.
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I get urges to cut myself quite often. Everytime I use this sharp kitchen knife my mom gave me, I have the urge to run it over my arm. Did it again yesterday, but not badly. Sometimes the voices say I must cut myself to prove I am real, but I hear it so often that I ignore it. The self-harm comes almost automatically when I get out that knife to cut veggies, though. I’ve had suicidal thoughts before but never intended to kill myself, too scared I’d go to hell. I cut to feel pain and see blood, not to kill myself.
I got suicide thoughts till I started bible study!.
What little bunch are you representing there, @floating9 ? Just curious.
Out of personal experience!.
Which you have a right to, of course.
Just be aware that the religious abuse by parents and others that played a big part in the induction of this truly horrible disease will make it all but impossible for those who were abused in that manner to accept your recommendations.
Do you suffer from sz, sza, szt, or psychotic bipolar, btw?
Because if you do not, and if you are not a relative of someone who does who is seeking help from those who have actual experience with these disorders, you really don’t belong here.
Hello Brian5197
I don’t have badly done voices and I have never had them want me to do self harm. Your voices seem confused as they react to your thoughts within you. My voices do use this backward and forward method of figuring things out this allows them to find your thoughts on things. It’s like twenty questions with your mind and they want to see all the answers those that are badly done and then those that are of them bringing you up. I find this method of figuring things out actually unique as the mind spins to all parts of itself to find answers of ourselves. When I am mad I go to extremes at first to solve the problem, swinging one way and then the other way till a balance is met. The thing is the voices are doing this also with your thoughts which confuses and destroys our process of thinking.
Be strong and live strong
And to get rid of the thing touching you, next time you have this experience tell it to find powessy.
Powessy
I wish i can create a knife myself in my mind and cut them off…better than cut ourselves rite? Then u can said they are not real…hahaha
Hi notmoses, i am suffering from Schizophrenia two years ago…i got taken med and got out of it…i still haven’t really ask my psychiatrist what type is my Schizophrenia. Maybe cause of it, i am getting more serious. Within this month i will see psychiatrist to see how to take care back this damaging disease that make us to scare of those voices.
Give it a rest. Stop the bible trolling. Here’s a complete list of your trolling.
I’ve visited a fair number of near death experiences sites on Youtube. What they say about suicide is that you don’t escape by killing yourself. You still have to resolve the problem that was bedeviling you. That knowledge keeps me from killing myself. I keep thinking, “I sure don’t want to have to go through this ■■■■ again.”