I have like 10 drafts in my email account to message him. I’m definitely going to embarrass myself one of these days. He’s a professional. he might be married. I"m 99.9% sure he would say no. I just so freaking want someone even as just a friend that i can rely on.
i’m going to go delete my drafts.
i deleted them. all 13
I wouldn’t. I would send the best one. you’ll get over it, if he rejects you. you’ll regret it, if you don’t send it.
no i know he doesn’t want too. He wished me luck and told me to keep it up. he doesn’t want me messaging him. He was for sure married at one point. probably still is… he’s also a professional. he’s not interested. i just wish i had someone like him for a friend.
Thanks charla though. 
Oh, ok. That’s too bad.
Did he tell you not to message him? You keep saying he’s a professional, what do you mean? A professional what?
a professional gigalow.
he will only let me see him if i pay. I can’t afford to keep seeing him.
I’m done with posting on here. i really struggle and people like the pink barbie troll. This isn’t the place for me. i really struggle and it’s hurtful with their comment on another post. they think it’s funny to make of me because i don’t want to be home alone because of anxiety and things i’ve dealt with and hallucinations. it’s not funny to me that’s for sure.
I’m sorry, I wasn’t making fun at all!
don’t comment on my posts.
The truth is he wasn’t even that friendly. He was nice but not really all that friendly. It’s sad i’m so lonely.
Ladies don’t go to a gigelow. There not worth the money.
You mean the gigalow only wanted money and not anything serious? Noooo!
He was the best gigelow there was in town. Loved by all his clients. He didn’t just do it for the money. i know that. He was a nice guy. But i don’t have the money to see him and in the end I am just another paying customer. He wasn’t that friendly. I was just lonely like a lot of people are.
It was nice while it lasted.
I’ve never heard of such a thing. Young women shouldn’t have to pay for men!
i’m sorry. It was just a bad joke.
This guy that I was dating owes me nearly £2000. I don’t think he will give it back and I asked him yo pay it to my mum not me. At first it was out of loneliness that I decided to lend him 20 pounds here n there but then I started to get scared of him. Sucks big time wish I never met him. He was showering me with so much attention but was at the same time getting my money. But wen he asked for money he was so annoying and scary wen I said no.
So I can relate to the loneliness thing. Cos that’s how mine started off. I sympathise with you. Only mine got out of hand I didn’t even want to give him money anymore but I was so scared just having come off my meds and feeling so so paranoid of this guy. How sad wat I got myself into.
I hope you come across a nice Friendly guy who you don’t need to pay any money to…
I hate this disease it makes me feel like a target and so vulnerable and paranoid
i hear you butterfly. Try that headset it works for me. You can’t wear it all the time. Your ears get sore. But if you get a good one it will help with the white noise that bugs you/neighbors.
I hope you don’t have to deal with the guy anymore. He doesn’t sound like a nice guy at all. Especially if he knew you were in such a vulnerable state. Yes it’s better not to pay men.
I wish you could have had someone to help make him stop asking for money. i don’t know what 2000 pounds is in american money. If i had been there i would have told him to hit the road.
24900 dollars
Lol Thankyou!
He was threatening me not to mention things to others. N I was scared to for a long time. It really was a terrible situation.