This Is What Happen In My Head

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  1. I am standing around doing something and the voice/people in my head start talking when I am usually alone. Sometime when I am around people
  2. They stay stuff to me like “I’m lesbian” I say to the lesbians “kill yourself”
  3. It keeps going on and on like this
  4. When I see a lesbian on the internet or lesbian porn they start bragging about lesbians
  5. They talk about incestiphilia… they are obsessed with my sister and their own sister… they tell me that every person looks like my sister and this grosses me out
  6. They keep saying “it’s your sister” then I say something condescending back
  7. They get pleasure out of saying different things to gross me out “I usually make fun of them for being lesbian”
  8. They do this over and over again

and no they aren’t winners… they think they are winners for me treating them badly

lesbians are pretending they are better than a married couple (my female cousin) because I am making fun of lesbians in story mode

these female voices in my head act like real hardcore attention whores always trying to get attention from me

with normal attention whores you can just ignore them… but not the ones in my head… because they are wherever I am at… and if I try to get away they are still there because they are in my head

Its almost like it really is one of my female neighbors that is an attention whore trying to get attention from me 24/7

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Idk I think it may be our imagination turning against us due to imbalance or outside trauma. Just realize it isn’t you and they will only twist your brain more the longer you ague. Remember it’s your wits against your eits. You can’t beat yourself.

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At least you realise it’s in your head and not real somehow. That’s good.

Have you seen a psychiatrist? Did they put you on meds?

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Do you have a therapist you could work through this with?

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I wish I could afford it. My insurance doesn’t really cover it.

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Yep, they did put me on medication

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Could you get your psychiatrist to recommend a self help book? Or see if there is a hearing voices/peer support group in your area?