Been off of meds for a few days. Here’s my early observation:
I am less agitated. It might be too early, but if this continues, I’ll be pleasantly surprised. What I mean is I’ve always tended towards the agitated side. But I’m not. In fact, I’m happier, more easy going, less forgetful, and less irritated at the world in general. This is a good thing.
Somewhat tending towards the fearful side. Got hyperaware last night watching teevee, and had to walk away. I was watching a show called “In Treatment,” a show by HBO that chronicles the therapy sessions of five patients with their therapist. The therapist, Paul, began talking to me about my father and how I caused him to commit suicide. I had to turn the teevee off and walk away. Black birds appeared in shadow form from behind the blinds, so I left the room, and went to play Hay Day on my phone and listen to music.
The world is an interesting place for sure.