All I want to do is die. I’m constantly suffering all the time. What did I do to deserve this?
Tomorrow is a new day
Tomorrow, it’s gonna be okay
Tomorrow, things will be alright
Tomorrow, the Sun is gonna shine bright
(My song lyrics)
Hang in there, kiddo! When you think it’s the very end…that’s just the start of a new beginning! 
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Go to the desert with a horse with no name, it’ll feel good to be out of the rain.
Where there ain’t no one to give you no pain
(Not my song lyrics)
I often feel the way you feel at night too, like right now.
I just wanna drink or drug away my sorrows but know, it’ll be better tomorrow. (Well maybe not tomorrow cuz we’re having a family party, but the day after)
Feel better chap
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Are you on AP’s or any other medication, @baybeeemarieeee? There’s help out there for you.
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You’re not actually considering hurting yourself, are you? If so, you need to get to the hospital immediately
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Please seek help immediately? Is there someone you can call?
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Please see doctors as soon as possible. Your situation is bad now.
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No I’m not taking anything. I know there is but no one in my family would believe me. Plus we are not financially stable to do therapy
There are crisis hotlines you can call to talk to a professional about this. Please look them up in your area if you are feeling at your wit’s end.
I get tormented as well but I made a promise to myself to never commit suicide knowing that there is a greater power than what we call schizophrenia which I beleive to be spirits. You can work on small things like diet and exercise education and any way to bring you peace maybe meditation or reading I really hope things get better for you work at it until it submits to your positive and enlightening ways.
If you’re afraid you might hurt yourself and are worried about the cost of calling 911 or admitting yourself to a hospital (which is what I ended up doing once), you could start by trying to talk to someone about it?
I was trying to look up hotline specifically related to schizophrenia, but I wasn’t having much luck. I did see these on a site that talked about suicide and schizophrenia, though I believe they’re general suicide hotlines…
1-800-SUICIDE
(1-800-784-2433)
or
1-800-273-TALK
(1-800-273-8255)
or
Text Telephone:
1-800-799-4TTY
(1-800-799-4889)
You can get care free of charge from the government. I know this is hard for you, but remember, this can change. It doesn’t have to always be this way.
I went through hell.
My last friend on earth severed contact at age 24, I loved her. I tried to kill myself by taking everything in my medicine cabinet after drinking ten beers only to sit on the floor realizing I didn’t want to die. I called someone and ended up in the hospital.
Now, My 30’s, I wake up to the cruelest slap in the face anyone could ever give (I trusted insane people, family, no one would ever know) The world I’d lived in? Gone. The loved ones and friends I’d known? For the most part gone. Can I trust anyone? Pretty much no. Do I even know what those I’ve lived amongst and even been close to and loved more than life it’s self are even experiencing? No I cannot.
I am caught in a bear trap I walked into out of blind but what took years to establish trust. I can’t sanely live, my life is ruined for now, over, gone, demolished. But all I do have is the will to live. I can’t (sober) show my face in public, I can barely stop by the peer support center I was supposed to move back here to help start. I sit in the grass and smoke my pipe and talk, inside, noway.
No matter what, even if they demand my death (which they do) I will not do it, I will stay alive, I will find a way.
I assume you are from america. Happy independence day!!
I have depression…its awful…take it easy and just relax…I find lazin about watching tv can be helpful…other than that tell ur pdoc that u need some more anti depressants