Ever just want to get away? Don’t get me wrong, I love my parents but I need a break. No weed, just open road and no destination. a 24-pack of agua, a sleeping bag, and a full tank of gas.
Am I dreaming ?
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For ■■■■’s sake, I’m either having a manic episode or I’m on the cusp of losing my ■■■■ altogether
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go outside and sit a while…maybe you’ll simmer down.
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My god, jump in the car, sleep overnight somewhere and come back the next morning. I do it several times spending time somewhere overnight, i don’t sleep, but the the sanctuary of this solitude is worth it.
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That’s cool. I went to a 12-step meeting. The fellows stayed salty tonight, and it brought me back to earth somewhat. No matter where I go, it’s going to be cold, and I’m going to miss my warm bed.
But thanks for the idea, I may employ it if I have notions of driving way way far.
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Yes, the comfort and convenience of my home always draws me back, but escape cabinfever ? sometimes the only way is going out or pull something.
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It’s ok to get away for a bit, but you should let your family know you’re doing that and that you’re ok and just need a break.
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Maybe plan a camping trip? Check at a nearby park. Many have camping sites for like $30/day or even $10/day on weekdays. And definitely let your parents know you will be gone and when you will return, because parents worry. But I used to do that all the time when I felt the draw to run away. It was safer and more practical.
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I’ve noticed my parents become a bit more posessive and get worried if I even mention leaving town. Even though my general condition has been steadily improving since mid-2022. I do leave town sometimes because I’ve gotta visit friends and such, and they seem uneasy. Maybe it’s old age…
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I actually do this occasionally in the warmer part of the year. Vlad’s trunk is large enough to hold a comfy air mattress, so with the back seats down I can sleep diagonally. It’s comfy. I put some shades up in the car and sleep in a Walmart lot or something overnight. Saves on motel and campground fees for an overnight photo outing.
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You still have the car “Vlad?”
Of that, I say, I’m glad.
I still have a car, and suit.
But, not for a photo-shoot.
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Heads up that in the US Walmart now sends security around to kick out people sleeping in the parking lot. Before that happened, I used to do this also.
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You aren’t the only one. I have contemplated filling my car up and driving till I ran out of gas destination unknown.
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Not a problem in my area yet, but I think the housing crisis will change that. Lots of people living in cars now.
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Just to update, I went and drove 250 miles to a city abound with sin. I thought I would experience it in full, but I ended up eating a meal, slept in my car, and drove home. It cost me $80 for gas and I spent $100 in the city. The road trip is over, and I am off awol status.
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Did the trip help you? Like did it give you a reset?
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It did, just to get away for a day. I took the forum advice to tell my parents where I was going and when to expect me, and it kept me on a schedule.
The trip itself was okay. I thought I’d get lost doing city things, but felt all alone even when there were throngs of people around. I people-watched a little, played some, and smoked a pack of cigarettes.
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Yeah @gene . I feel very lonely in crowds. I get it
Oh, and @gene im glad you let them know 
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thanks @LilyoftheValley
I don’t know if growth is possible with sz, but I have grown up over the years. They say time heals everything, but with sz, it seems like all we do is suffer without relent. or growth.
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