Things that happened to me today - Can you relate or advise?

DX'd - Sz/SzA
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I wore a hat today because it was a little chilly. The hat wasn’t extravagant or anything, it was just a beanie. But I felt like every single person was watching me and whispering about me because of the hat, or some other part of my outfit. Every time I caught someone’s eye they looked away like I was a strange person with weird clothes so I walked with my head down. It made me feel extremely uncomfortable in my own skin.

When I was in class and the professor was speaking I would pick up on certain words, but they were words that didn’t really have to do with anything. They would stick in my head and I would want to write the word down and repeat it over and over like it was new to me. This would happen with phrases too. But none of it made any sense. This has happened to me before, in an introductory art class I took in undergrad. I’ve looked back on those notes and most of them didn’t make any sense.

I was at a restaurant with a friend and I was talking about my internship supervisor, and not necessarily in a negative way. I felt like my supervisor was there sitting behind me or within earshot so I stopped talking. I felt like it wasn’t okay for me to talk anymore because I didn’t want anyone to overhear me.

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Sometimes I feel like one word or concept someone has said has a special significance. That’s it.

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Yup. I go through this. Lol.

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How ru doing man? How is Abilify so far, is your alogia still better?

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Yeah I talk a lot more these days :smiley: Its mostly because of the improvement in cognition

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I sometimes feel like people are glaring at me like I am an idiot or rolling their eyes at me. I shove the thoughts away but, who knows?, Maybe they are rolling their eyes

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I think it sounds to me like you were conscious about yourself. I was like that when I had no self confidence.

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Maybe you were feeling self conscious because you don’t normally wear a hat?

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This is a delusion of reference.

A bit of paranoia.

Maybe you need a tweak in your meds? How long are you taking meds? Sometimes they take a while to work.

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Thanks for the insight. As far as antipsychotics go I’ve been on the abilify injection since January of 2016. I was on a high dose of zyprexa in the hospital in July but I quit taking that shortly after being discharged.

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Alright, you have to wait a bit, it took me a while for my delusions of reference to completely dissipate. Good luck :slight_smile:

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