Mine would be I would spot an ongoing occurrence of the youtube videos that i watched to be especially-than-normally vivid and the words like on forums or scholarly articles I would read would be pertaining to my situation very signfiicantly. The phenomenon that happens is so profound I can’t even put it in words, I know. But yeah, from watching youtube videos and tv shows thats the special meaning I got from them, “more vivid visual experiences”, and for the forums and scholarly reads: things contextualizing my situation.
I hate ideas of reference. They don’t make my life better, they just add to the crazy narrative. Happens less these days thankfully.
Those can be quite a nuisance, I’m not sure if this is what I’ve had but mine probably were mild compared to some peoples experiences.
For example if a song says “You”, I’d hear it as trying to speak to me.
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Delusions of reference are my most troublesome symptom and I can’t seem to shake them no matter what I try.
Interesting we suffered from similar symptoms and both had alogia as well. My alogia is gradually getting better on abilify.
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Ya how is ur alogia doing? I feel like I can initiate conversations
hey,
Yeah sounds pretty normal for something so abnormal.
You’ve got to appreciate it’s all just symptoms of a mind going askew…there’s no pattern or meaning too it although to you there is so much more meaning!
It’s hard to escape but meds help for most folk. It’s a trade off but symptoms like this affect your function and that is the danger sign.
Take the pills as prescribed…ask for alternatives if they aren’t working but give the meds a try…ie at least 6 weeks minimum!
A friend in the struggle,
rogueone.
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Once I realized I am a ‘normal’ average human and nobody cared about me really made these horrible delusions of reference go away. I haven’t had any grandiose thoughts for a long period of time.
TV, People’s talk, hints about things etc. I still get slightly deluded sometimes but a whole lot better nowadays.
So overtime you think it is phenomenal, it is not. Tell yourself some words like 'I am only a normal human, why would anybody care to post this on youtube ’ ? no-one cares about you (only a few loved ones)
I feel like I can participate in converstions, I just can’t dominate them or be as verbose as I would like. When I try and talk to myself or rehearse my though process gets derailed and I can’t recover it. So responsive speech is all I can do.
I would feel like I’m deceiving myself.
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@MissMermaid I love you!
I care deeply about you!
How can you say no one cares about you.
I am currently unable to help you because I am low functioning,
but if my functioning improves and you feel vulnerable, like you can’t make food,
call me and either I will help you myself or find somebody in your country to help you.
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@Erez_Shmerling
I mean this reality makes me come back down to earth. thank you :o)
I am deceived by delusions so