Iam so sorry for your loss
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My condolences to you and your family.
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oh that is so sad…I am very sorry you lost your nephew this way…try not to blame yourself…
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Sorry for your loss .
I’m so sorry @Anna1. I’m sending vibes heavenward on your behalf.
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I’m so sorry to hear that @Anna1 …
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That’s so sad. I’m sorry no one could help him.
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I’m sorry about your nephew.
I’m so very sorry for your loss.
Thank you all again…
I think, that i am on my feet still, because of the added depakote 2 days ago…
I needed something calming, even if its numbing, am still very sensitive though…
I took that years ago in fact, before stopping it, but i was probably less sensitive though, so thats why i stopped it years ago, i was feeling nothing specific on it-neither good or bad…
Who else is helped by the depakote here, pals?
I am probably getting way too excited now, i just pray, that i wont get nervous or something like that on this depakote, but its supposed to do the opposite, so it can help a lot now…
Ok, thank you all again…
My heart is broken tbh for real now ,for once… 
I blame myself a bit, even that now its me the left burden about my family…
My nephew was ultra courageous and brave to do that in fact… He did it alos to not be a burden…
I keep thinking if he was in too much pain after the fall and mainly around his suffering before…
Anyway, i stop for now… Am close still to my mommy, she’s quite alone too, but at some point, i need to retire and think, thats all…
Hugs to all…
@SkinnyMe , you lost a son, right? Your story has touched me in the past too…
Tbh, am 43 and probably wont have kids… My illness is too severe and maybe mainly quite sticky… I was the witness of all the pain of my father, later on, its me who got it, i think, that my nephew had something too, not only the drug addiction…
Ttyl you all…
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Hi all!
Sorry, am grieving and feeling quite guilty too…
I was seeing the suffering of my nephew, i remained quite passive…
Idk how i’ll heal beyond the death after a psychosis of my father, now my nephew, its too much, guys and girls…
Maybe i am already quite hated by many, i wasnt maybe a good person around my own illness…
My life is changed forever and i dont mind this much, cause now i want to heal even more…
The thing is, that till now, i was only a burden of my family, even my sister said, that i suffocate my mother…
But i still isolate etc, i didnt live the last 20 years… My mom still endures me, plus i have some progress, but really, am i not a burden too in fact?
The rest, i dont want much to hear my other sz friend, who is in a harsh episode again, she toldme ,that in my place, she would have killed herself… She never isolated, never gave up really…
Am scared, that i have now such deep thoughts, but maybe its normal…
Should i aim the health now or didnt i do too much bad in this life???
Hugs to all…
For the info, yes, i started the depakote, its calming, which is good, i try to activate too…
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Sorry for your loss @Anna1 . I have a dear nephew who right now suffers from a drug induced psychosis, he is in a closed ward and receives ECT for the psychosis and talks about suicide.
I’m very worried it is not a drug induced psychosis but SZ and that he is going to struggle with the same MI as me. I really hope he is going to be allright, he is my favourite nephew and i have been taking care for him since he was an infant.
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Peace and love to you, your family and your nephew. That’s got to be hard. I hope for healing and clarity.
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my condolences 
Sorry @Anna1 I’m sure he’s somewhere better
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