Not sure about “worst”. I have had many that were really stressful. For example that my parents and friends were not actually “themselves” but in reality there were their clones that killed the original versions of them and I was talking to the clones, not original people. Or sometimes I have the uncomfortable belief that people (even strangers in the streets) know the most embarrassing secrets of my life. Or people (or the government) spying on me in any possible way although to be honest that’s not a delusion. There’s proof for that. Even Edward Snowden leaked those documents. And it’s a known fact now that Google spies on you a lot.
But one that is particularly uncomfortable is that there are people in my bedroom when I’m not in my bedroom and that they hide somewhere (for example in the wardrobe on under my bed) when I enter the room. I used to suffer a lot because of these thoughts and even hallucinations in the past but not even though I still experience these things it’s usually much calmer now and the hallucinations are more calm and happy now for some reason. Not always, though. Sometimes they’re still negative but depends on the day, to be honest.
Yeah at the beginning I used to feel very scared but then I understood those thoughts I was having about clones killing the people who look like them were not meant to be taken literally, rather they were meant to be taken metaphorically, symbolically and philosophically. My mind wanted to give me a message. There was a meaning for those “delusions”. The meaning wasn’t that a clone literally killed the people I knew in real life and took their place. The meaning of those “delusions” was metaphorical and it meant that there are no certainties in life, that even the things that you take for granted as true might very well be false. But… that doesn’t mean you should fear uncertainty. Uncertainty is a great thing once you accept its existence. Those “delusions” are there to teach us to stop fearing uncertainty, in my opinion. Those delusions are teachers of lessons in life. They are not there to cause us suffering and discomfort for the sake of it, rather, they are there to teach us good things. Those delusions have a meaning. Symbolic, yes, it’s not that clones literally kill people you know in real life, of course, it’s not a literal meaning. But once you understand the symbolic meaning of the clone delusion (it’s called Capgras delusion, I have read that on the Internet), it’s a great meaning. Uncertainty is always there in life, and that’s a great thing because it gives more purpose in our lives. We have to accept uncertainty and embrace it. And take it to our own advantage to live a satisfying life. I didn’t read this meaning on the Internet, I have understood it through years of personal struggling. I think what we experience is not there to necessarily hurt us. Even scary hallucinations have their own meaning, and we need to discover it.
I rememeber I thought I would get money like a lot of money and also get deported if the government thought I was a deranged individual . It makes no logical sense but I started adding people on Facebook and started saying some crazy racist stuff and terrorist threats and all kinds of threats as my Status updates. It didn’t work! But I was hospitalized and came out of the hospital very embarrassed and on a lot of meds
