For years they had me as schizoaffective mixed type and flirted with bipolar. I was on lithium alone from 1982-2002 and then tegretol from 2002-2005 which I didn’t take because some dumb arse mental health nurse I had gone to for more support said my only problem was dependent PD.
Then when they first switched the dx I was taken oiff all meds for a year ie the mood stabiliser and antipsychotic
Then a year later when I said being off meds wasn’t working the pdoc said he was reluctant to put me on an antidepressant on it’s own because oif “possible negative effects on my mood”.
Suggesting they were hedging their bets despite the change of diagnosis, Instead got put back on Zyprexa which supposedly is multi functionality ie anti psychotic and mood stabilising properties.
I seem to have an opposite to a cyclothymic thing going on in that I can be in a mood state for years and then for some reason it changes. For years I was going out regularly ,fairly upbeat,doing things like singing out load down the high street, supermarket etc to my ipod, playing music loud in the early hours of the morning and then it changed. I got into staying in my pyjamas unless I had to go out and going out infrequently,the Ipod which was still working then not used to sing out loud any more, anxiety which was there to a lesser degree previously got ramped up.
Previous to both those spells it was Anxiety,irritability,inner
I sometimes call it ‘positively charged depression’.