This is a common issue I’m seeing in people who desperately want help for their depression/anxiety but are too nervous to try antidepressants. I was in that group as well.
Anyways the problem is that when you start the medication it immediately makes you start getting bad side effects. You could have heightened anxiety for as long as 2 weeks. The first time I tried meds, this practically confirmed for me that meds were not for me because if they were good for me there’s no way I’d be feeling that way. BUT what is not taken into mind is that these feelings of being worse than normal PASS. (If you’re on the right med for you, and if you aren’t you should communicate immediately w doc to switch. Lexapro didn’t work for me for example) Zoloft side effects for me lasted only 4 days. I started seeing significant changes in my anxiety within 3 weeks and my whole life was turned around at 6 weeks as life finally stopped feeling so unbearable and suffocating.
I guess my message to anyone on here really struggling with depression and anxiety and feeling like life is awful and unmanageable, TRY medication. It WILL feel sucky in the beginning but DON’T let that scare you out of the potential of having a quality and happy life on them! That’s what I have to say.