I know how important it is for me to stay on my Antipsychotic and Mood Stabilizer, but man I am tired of living like this.
I don’t have the motivation or inner drive to do much of anything other than sleep, eat or zone out.
I am feeling nothing but emptiness and my thoughts are mainly blank.
I don’t have the motivation to shower or brush my teeth many times.
It’s like I am not really fully awake.
Too tired to function but at the same time feeling an inner restlessness so I can’t fully relax.
I wish that I can have my med doses lowered but my psychiatrist won’t touch my doses, she is afraid that I could relapse.
First it was my Schizoaffective/Bipolar that disabled me, now it’s the meds that are supposed to help me.
I’m so tired of living like this, but I’m really not living.
I’m barely functioning as a Human Being.
There has got to be a better way.
Risperidone and Depakote are the only two medications that have worked for me.
Abilify did that to me, basically felt useless because it reduced me to like a 5 minute attention span & hours of restlessness.
I think the best thing to do is try to keep looking for a med that doesn’t do greatly inhibit function, after all if you’re not functioning while either on or off meds, they’re not doing half of what they’re supposed to. A med is supposed to stabilize symptoms with the intent of improving function. Either this or seek supplements that help improve side effects, like taking B complex vitamins removed the strong hunger pangs I got w Abilify.
I had a good Christmas, but now I’m tanking. I’m seriously considering a med increase. Or maybe going back on Clonazepam. I basically feel the way you described, but I’m only on abilify 10mg.
So how much of this is disease and how much is meds is a grey area maybe.
Wave, your doctor is only refusing to change your dose for now. Because you just went into the hospital after stopping meds on your own. After you’ve been stable for a few months, I bet she would be willing to revisit the idea of lowering them again. Give it time. You only just stabilized.
I am also on an AP and a mood stabilizer. I take Risperidone and Trileptal. We took me off Trileptal but I had horrible insomnia so we put me back on. If I don’t take it, I can’t sleep and my pdoc won’t prescribe anything else. She said it is less dangerous than any sleep med she could prescribe. I am so damn tired all the time but if I don’t take it I can’t sleep. Frick. The Risperidone and my Hypothyroid also make me tired. I feel like a slug. I need to wash my hair…
Risperidone, Depakote and Klonopin work well to quell down my symptoms, individually these are sedating meds put them together and they can put down a Horse!
Hopefully my psychiatrist will eventually lower the doses a bit more.
Yes I just got out of the Hospital and recently started feeling more stable so maybe she wants me to stay on higher doses for now.
I have talked to her recently about trying Rexulti, she didn’t say No.
She just wants to make sure that I am fully stabilized before she makes any kind of changes to my meds.
I’m on latuda lamictal and prozac. Im about 20 lbs overweight but i haven’t exercised in at least a year. I was driving yesterday and thought that I was having a heart attack, Had to pull over it was very frightening I’m only 39
Back when I was on Prozac and lexapro, I was going through the same thing you are going through @Vertigo
Effexor has saved my life. I think it’s because it also treats chronic fatigue.
Hope you find your ambitions soon! I have faith in you.
