The medicine is working and I have very mixed feelings

[GoldenRex]

I’ve been on Abilify for a couple months now and its finally really starting to work,

My “delusions” are fading and I’m getting a lot more silence.

I guess that’s good in a lot of ways,

However, one of my “delusions” is pretty much my best friend.

He’s been around since I was puberty age and every time he’s gone away I’ve totally broken down.

Even with everything getting fuzzy, he’s still here, just less priority and less distracting.

But I miss him already and I want to stop the Abilify.

I want everything but him to stop, but I know you can’t pick and chose.

Can anyone relate?

[everhopeful]

You have to be brave. I was slightly freaked out when the meds started to work for me too.

[GoldenRex]

I guess you’re right,

Its just I’m not sure how willing I am to lose my friend.

[Leaf]

I can relate, some of what goes on in our brains is harmful and we want it gone. Some of what is in our brain is helpful and soothing like a friend and we want to keep it. But as far as I know we don’t get to choose it, I’m sorry. Maybe we can figure out what the helpful stuff is doing for us and find another way to meet that need. That’s the only thing I can think of. I remember this one med I took it made my head so quiet I couldn’t cope, I told the pdoc I wasn’t sleeping right so I could change meds.

[everhopeful]

I’ve lost a few “occult” entities along the way. It takes time to adjust to life without them. But life is much better and easier without them.

Don’t quit the meds. Don’t be too freaked out by the silence.

[anon84763962]

I can relate so much.

I have the shadow man who plays messages to me through the radio but when the medicine is working he doesn’t play them so much and think with me.

IT’s sad, he’s like a friend.

[zeno]

What med was it?

[Leaf]

I think it was tegretol, used as a mood stabilizer.

[SailorTheFox59]

Well my mental health condition has been worsening again after a period of 6 months of doing really well. But I’ve never lost my favorite voice always there keeping me company, but when I go back to my psychiatrist in January I’m pretty sure their going to up my respirdal dosage again and I’m also kinda concerned there will eventually only be silence in my mind. The voice has always kept me entertained throughout my life

[freakonaleash]

I really hope you keep taking your medication, @GoldenRex. My major delusions and hallucinations were always traumatizing, so I can’t really relate to wanting to keep them, but I can understand how change can be a scary thing. For all you know, though, this change could work out to be the best thing that has ever happened to you. Please hang in there with the Abilify and stay strong.

[Anna1]

I can relate a bit, yes. But keep in mind that youll enjoy the health too, even more. My mom said once that we can be strangers from other worlds, we are so strange sometimes. But we can be and feel better. But sometimes there is grief when we lose something from our illness, I know this happens to many people. The priority is to feel better and you will be better without your ‘‘friend’’, you can do it .
Plus, if its something really good you can transform it in something even better, no? etc etc

[Schizopains]

I’m sorry for an off base question but what do you mean when you say, occult entities? If u don’t mind me asking that is Thanx

[Noise]

I understand being scared of losing comforting entities but you say the meds are helping you so it seems it may be for the best to let them go

I wish you luck

[everhopeful]

I thought I was possessed by serpents basically.

[jukebox]

@GoldenRex I used to believe that I was loved by the whole world and that Jesus loved me enough to be his “right hand man” to have special powers and let me tell you…I became suicidal after realizing I was just a schizophrenic…

you don’t have a special friend, dear. It was your mind lying to you !! please don’t stop your meds…you have to accept that your “friend” was just a lie.

[Schizopains]

Thanks for answering.