The only true memories I still remember and think about is when I was in love while ill thinking a fiancee from years before was still in love with me and communicating with me through the scientists…incredible feelings of joy…every experienced this while ill?
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Can’t say that I have experienced it, but it sounds pretty nice.
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Actually even though it was mainly euphoric I was tortured painfully by the fact that I couldn’t be with her while we were in love…I thought I was trapped in a virtual reality ran by scientists that were trying to bring me out of a coma…long story…haha…anyways…it was painful in the end.
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Had something like this. A girl I met I thought I was telepathically interacting with, we connected so well and I felt that intense joy through our connection.
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I had a girl’s voice whom I’ve never met in my head that claimed to be my wife. I’ve always wondered how I was going to meet her in real life and that question was never answered. I was basically in love with her which has faded but I still have feelings for her. I also have come to realize that she’s not what I thought she was and that it’s not helpful for me to try to be with her. I know she’s not a positive aspect of my life but I find I would prefer to be with her than be with a real person. I know that’s stupid, but it’s like she has a hold of me. I’ve been getting more stable lately though so she doesn’t really talk to me anymore and I hope to get past this soon. I really need to just find someone in real life or at least get laid again.
I have had a crazy erotomania experience. Long insane story.
I thought that a woman in my area was in love with me. once when passing in front of her house I saw an illusion: in a green plant I saw two gypsies having sex. I don’t know if it was illusion or hallucination. it was momentary… when illusion vanished I saw the green plant again.
I have the same problem as Xade. When I am psychotic I think I am interacting with my significant other and that she monitor me by hidden cameras. I also have celebrity crush delusions I think that the movie they act in and interviews they do somehow is signaling something to me. I have to say I have a hard time letting go off these love delusions. At my highest I actually cry because I want to be with them physically so bad, but I know It’s not meant to be.
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I have erotomania something bad. Its a weird combination when you have both that and avolition. I fall in love with like 4 or 5 girls I meet in my life at school and stuff, but never follow through on any of them. Before sz it was never an issue, I was very cold and calculated. I never let my guard down, all that mattered was my hobbies and my mind. I actively avoided falling in love. Very focused. Like a guided missile. Now after sz I deal with strange obsessions. Emotional, sexual, etc. Its very limiting.
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