I am at a point where I can support myself financially, I have a car, my own business, funds to support myself for a year. I have PTSD to live with maybe I will feel lonely.
We had a talk two days ago, he felt sad I was thinking about moving out. He cares about me but there are so many things lacking. I will turn 32 this year and living with MI. If I move out, I wanna be alone for like 6 months at least. I wanna spend time alone. Recover, let go. It’s so hard to make a decision when he’s a very nice person. It’s hard to let go, it’s hard to hold on. Is this the duality of my mind because of my illness.
He sounds like the perfect guy. But from what I can see you’ve never really been happy with him It’s nobody’s fault , sometimes two people just don’t click.
I hope you can make it on your own if that’s what you decide.
At 32 years of age, is the guy marriage material and is he willing to start a family with you? You may have to sacrifice your business if say you get pregnant and have to take care of the baby.
Sometimes being selfish is OK. I don’t know what to tell you because a lot of schizophrenics find it hard to find a partner but not only did you find a partner, but you got lucky and he’s a nice guy. On the other hand, sometimes there’s a window of opportunity of making a change like moving out on your own. The window may close if you don’t take advantage of it.
I would like to have somebody, but I’m a loner and it is hard to find someone that can live with someone like me and for that reason I stay single.
From your posts maybe it is time to move on, a little easier for a woman to find another partner, finding a good one is hard.
Most people in their 30’s start to think out more what they want in life, so you not alone in what you are going through sz or not
You’re right. This is why I’ve been holding on for such a long time. Mental illness is a battle, but I deserve to have a fulfilling life. Don’t you think? I’ve been working so hard for a very long time. Why can’t I make peace with this illness?
A guy doesn’t have to be a horrible monster for you to not like him. He might just be not right for you. You have been thinking about leaving him for years now, if I remember correctly. I think your heart knows what it wants, and knows what it doesn’t.
It is up to you, really. But it isn’t very fair to keep the guy around just because you don’t have any better options. Anyone deserves to be with someone who loves them for who they are.
People with schizophrenia can still have kids. I’d roll those dice, I don’t care that I have schizophrenia. There’s a good chance the kid won’t have it. I still prefer being alive with schizophrenia to never having been born. Food tastes great, the sun is shining, I have my family and friends, and tomorrow is always another day.
It’s nobody’s fault , sometimes two people just don’t click.