oh the horror, and im not kidding
i believe almost every one here feel remote
the horror of people outside the apartment.
the paranoia of going outside to the street
the hell of the supermarket
shelves with holes for people to look at you because i am a weirdo
the fukkkg feeling that it is a nightmare and not real
people sanding weaves of hate t word me, im surrounded by monsters under skin of humans,
i hate this illness
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I feel this all too well. I dread grocery shopping
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In the U.S. we have a lot of supermarkets open 24 hrs so one option is to go grocery shopping early morning or late at night when it’s pretty empty. Of course, that’s the time when they’re stocking shelves but at least there aren’t many customers.
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nice, thats a good option,
im not usa, so for me its hel…yyeey
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Can you get your groceries online @ola?
I’m sorry your feeling so paranoid.
I’ve been feeling a bit more paranoid myself.
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well, i need to go outside, i cand live in my room never go out,
i will never be o.k
must learn how to live in this world, what ever he be
maybe this world just a dream…
maybe im in hell
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Did you find a psychiatrist in your new country that you can call?
Maybe you can get on some meds.
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you remembered
oh sweety thanks 
no i didend found, i have no half insurance yet,
and there is not much of them here.
mi doomed
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I would work on getting insurance and finding a pdoc that can help you.
You are taking a big risk by not having a doctor.
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You are beautiful person @ola ! Do you paint still?
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You are right! I’m glad you realize you need to leave the house. It is much harder dealing with the real world if you don’t leave the house. I’m glad you’re stepping outside of your comfort zone! I’m a really big advocate of doing that!
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Going out, wherever it is, saps the joy out of me and makes me anxious. My goal for tomorrow is to stay in and do nothing
hey wow did not expect that, thenks
yes i painting, i have a little studio and i orderd a roll of canvas
so i am starting again
thak you
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i will do that this is part of my plans thanks
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thats grate, hey we cent let this illness win in every step…
have to fight
some times my goal is the same-
some times stay in and doing nothing is goood
Do you not have your son tomorrow? It’s the summer I’m sure he likes to get out of the house. That could be a good motivation and let him decide where he wants to go and what he wants to do. It’s killing two birds with one stone…making him happy by experiencing new things and pushing you out of your comfort zone.
The supermarket used to scare the crap out of me until I’d been on Zyprexa for a month, then that fear started to go away. I don’t have as much problem there as I used to but I still try to make my visits quick and bring a list. I definitely don’t dilly dally.
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I go through the same thing. It’s terrible.
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I’m sorry u feel like that wen shopping. I used to live in a atmosphere like that where I felt everyone hated me. I hope u get a pdoc eventually who can help get rid of such extreme paranoia. I still kind of get it too
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