The Greatest Thing About My "New Schizophrenia"

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The greatest thing about my new schizophrenia is that while I may still have voices though in a very minimal way compared to the years before, I’m completely aware of what my mind is which no pdoc would disagree with.

I hear a voice, but I know that this room, the image of my body, and everything I feel and think are my mind. Everything to me is my mind. I can feel and know that 100%, and a voice is just a small part of that phenomenon that I’m living, existing as.

I know that my mind does not give me exact representations of reality such as my mind making up the phenomena of colors, brightness, music, language, pain, and hunger for example. Yes, of course reality is outside of my mind, but I can only see and hear my mind not external reality.

It’s a cozy feeling without any thoughts getting disrupted by really what are only other thoughts.

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That’s great, I wish I could do that :slight_smile:

I usually know that something is a hallucination if it doesn’t make sense, but I sometimes have a hard time discerning what is real and what isn’t when it comes to tactile hallucinations.
They feel so real.

How do you train yourself to know the difference?

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I don’t know if you remember me from last fall of last year, but I like to research and write. I usually wind up researching, thinking, and writing for awhile about phenomena related to the human species, and then I wind up intersecting others that are advanced in the area which gives me a boost. Sometimes those other researchers are ancient, and sometimes they are still alive. :rofl:

So a lot of what it is I do is just reducing the phenomena down to fundamental parts, and then I illustrate their functions. After that I study what I wrote several times, and from there I wind up “seeing more” into the phenomenon’s parts that I didn’t see before, so I write those down. Then I repeat this. That can go on for months or years for me.

For someone that is new to this area of thinking and fact finding, I suggest that you pick up two books, or just go on youtube, and look them up. One is Julian Jaynes, “The Origin of Consciousness in the Breakdown of the Bicameral Mind.” The other is Joe Atwill, “Caesar’s Messiah.”

They both have their own websites and youtube channels, so… It’s really easy.

Another one that is a must is the Trivium Education, so you can learn logic. That is how you learn to know when you are thinking and when you ruminating in just metaphors. Also that is how to read, listen, write, and speak effectively. I mean that’s how you really take control of your communication and your thoughts.

Always stay focused on your mind. Never lose focus, but make sure you know what it is. Make sure you understand logic, and then use logic to understand that mind phenomenon of yours. When ever you start to lose focus on your mind inside you and its interiority and how it works logically as in the way that universal phenomenon works, that’s when you will start to slip into hallucinations. The Julian Jayne book will talk about that area.

Don’t forget that everything is the mind, and you have to think about what that means. You have to study what that means, so look for logicians and philosophers. That’s what you’re missing. Always keep language through internet or sociality face to face, but stay active in researching and/or social exchange. At the same time stick with philosophers probably most likely on youtube. These two things will give you that concentration on your brain, mind, how it works, the logic in it, and it’s gotta be pretty constant to get anywhere positive. That’s how it is for me, and I’m doing a research project now that is looking like that is how it is for everyone else. It’s when people are not doing anything with language such as social action and researching where lots of words are playing or being read, they slip. The same is true when there’s no philosophy and logic. The people who really excel with their minds are of both of these things. If you just want meaning level, then just do one, but if you want the all you can be level, then you have to take each.

Don’t forget that telepathy is not a phenomenon. It’s a hoax. The problem with teaching kids that there’s telepathy with invisible beings and such is that it causes their brains to develop like their minds are extended infinitely in every direction when that is not the case. The mind is finite like a dome with a color interior, and on the outside of it is like a dark Guinness. Most people forget that what they see and hear is not their minds, and that is the biggest mistake of their lives.

Stay conscious of what your mind is like, stay logical and truthful about it, and use it like it was a looking glass into reality not like it is actually the reality that it is representing. And never, never, never accept that any form of telepathy is real no matter how nice a person was that says it is…with anything.

I hope that helps. :slight_smile:

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Then how can you be sure that there is an external reality? :slight_smile:

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I strongly believe that mind is infinite…

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I thought like that for a while when I was about 16. I was very consciously aware of my mind and introspective, very philosophical, and I was very social. I was also what I consider a low level psychopath mostly because of the solipsist thought you point out there. Also I had a ton of energy and wit, so I could get into and cause trouble relentlessly without ever being identified.

This is how it works though. Solipsists are happy in solipsism until reality breaks them into painful junk. They are never solipsist again.

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The power of words is strong on a mind. The reaction between the advancement of language with the mind after they started writing it down a few thousand yeas ago is amazing. Nature was rolling along for millions of years, and then all of a sudden it took a sharp right, and it exploded when language took hold of the human brain phenomenon. The two combined make a very interesting reaction.

In every statement there is a subject and a predicate. The predicate describes the subject. This is how nature is as well as the nature of the mind as well as the nature of the computer. It’s the rule.

When you receive words, it is like a “word balloon” filling which is in reaction to the words. If the words are taken away from your life, you have no word balloon in the mind. If the word balloon that is on your mind is true, but a fallacy seems better, the fallacy may pop the word balloon even though it is true. If the word balloon in the mind is a fallacy, a truth may pop it, but a fallacy may not be popped by a truth sometimes.

A needle may pop a belief or “word balloon” which is made by word in the mind for the mind to believe and feel. It doesn’t matter if the belief is true or if the needle that pops the belief is true. Truth nor fallacy have nothing to do with morals.

What is logically right may not be morally right. These are two different right and wrong areas. A double bind is when a situation or some words come around, and you must let go of your logical rope to cling onto the moral rope, so that you are morally right. Often tyrants, con artists, bad parents, and children use this exact thing to trick people out of things. Scams almost always work that way where they get you to feel something is moral, but then when you are doing the morally right thing, they are robbing you behind your back because you let down your logical guard.

Practicality is a balance between moral and logical right and wrong which requires thinking rather than metaphors. The only way you get to thinking over metaphors is that you study the logic of subjects and predicates. You cannot think until you understand the logic of every thought and feeling and sensation in your mind, and you get there by breaking all of these things down into subject and predicates checking to be sure they are real by verifying what you have been told yourself, and then checking to be sure that the real predicate describes the real subject. If any of this is wrong, you are not thinking. You are simply spinning fallacies in your mind.

Often word balloons are created in our minds by others words, and very often people do not check to see if they are real because they don’t even know how to check with logic. People have lived whole lives believing the word bubble that was blown into them by someone’s words while never knowing the facts. It’s not always up to them. Sometimes they must believe, or they’ll be killed. Sometimes they just cannot find any other information that would lead them to conclude that they’ve been fooled by a liar or another fool. That is the nature of history and most of all lives that have lived on earth so far, so it is not uncommon to die fooled by fools or even die for their fallacies like they were something of practical worth.

When you break everything in the mind down with logic, then you will know what is great about reality. Until then there is all of the waiting like someday a greatness is possible, but logical reality is far more amazing than those fantasies ever have been.

The problem is just finding a way to get to reality with logic, and reality is only found through the mind. Between external reality and our point of view and our mental relevance is our mental appendage produced by our brain organ. The brain’s mind is a representation of everything else informationally. It reach reality you must reach through the “looking glass” of the representational mind whether you know it or not.

If the words are fallacies, then the looking glass mind does not show you reality.

If the words are truths, then the looking glass mind shows you reality.

You can know words, and believe in things, but if even one of those is a fool’s fallacy or a tyrant’s lie, then you will never see reality, so you’ll miss out on all of this great place.

So in order to reach to the great reality, you have to check all of your subjects and predicates in your thoughts and in all of the words you’ve ever heard, or you cannot reach reality with a fallacious looking glass mind.

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My mind is really scary :thinking:

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Yes, I don’t believe there is anything more terrifying. I know. I had the worst of it for many years, but that’s all behind me now. I haven’t been terrified for quite awhile. I don’t use meds. I just use logic and mindology studies, good diet, good fitness, and especially common sense. I’m often surprised how vastly I’ve recovered. You know…in the worst of the sz you don’t know how far you are “in the woods” so to speak until you come back out again because when your “deep in the woods of sz,” you cannot remember what it was to be out of them. Once I came out, I could determine how deep I was “in there.” The contrasting differences is drastic.

I don’t think that sz’s believe that I had sz worse than them when they read me, talk to me, or understand that I’m not as bad sz as them. Oh well. It’s sad.

You say your mind is scary. What I find is that my mind makes the fear intentionally. In a regular mind fear is caused by real things that are scary, but in the sz mind it is something else. Fear is caused by real things that are scary, but even more so it is just steady constant being pushed all of the time sort of like a microwave that won’t shut off. The micro wave works when it is stimulated by pressing the buttons, but in this case it never shuts off no matter what buttons are pushed. It’s like a water facet that won’t shut off, and it’s pouring out “pure fear.”

A piece of muscle, kidney, heart, whatever will not produce fear, but a piece of brain will. In that brain is us, and our fear mechanism. It’s phenomenal.

Now that I’m out of it I can tell you that there is a mental obstacle course in the sz mind. Mine was because of religion and my own pretending when I was younger about magic and immortal minds. Once I learned “the language of the obstacle course” so to speak, then the mental things that don’t mean what they do to an sz suddenly mean what they do to an sz. It is like making thoughts and feelings and the sense of things out to be barbaric things, sad things, etc.

Imagine reading a book, and instead of just reading and imagining a story, the words that you read do things to you depending on which word you read. There are rules about which words, which conceptual meanings, and which order of events, but they do things to you. Those things can be sexual, violent, sad, depressing, angry… And it’s not a book though. It’s the mind, and within what the mind is is this obstacle course that is doing just like that book. That’s why it’s so scary and violent.

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Here you go. I wrote this today. You should think about this, and try to remember. :slight_smile:

A “word” is the mind, and when it’s change, the mind has changed in correlation. The mind is not what it is. The mind is what it means. All “Things” mean what things are. The mind means anything except what it is like letters on a page.

There is a mind horizon at edge of the “darkness territory” of the mind that is the source of all thoughts/senses which has been confused with magic more than 10,000 years now.

There is a mind horizon between the sense of the “now moment,” and the memory of the past even a second ago. The “Now” and the “Then” overlap overlap each other, and they make the mind a volatile, colorful, quicksand of zests, and a constant test of awareness and whits.

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Yes. I can’t think about God or my ex boyfriend too much or it will trigger me, and that’s what I’ve grown accustomed to is calling the triggers. I’ve learned to control my thought to where I don’t usually slide off the deep end anymore. I definitely don’t know how far I’ve been in until I’m out and I’ll be like whoa that was a delusion, but if I try to turn the path from a delusion that is giving me a loving feeling I can’t do it. It hurts my brain pretty bad. I don’t know why but it is that way. Guess I’m in need of that feeling so much. The whole experience has been pretty traumatizing and I felt like my body had been attacked by hate.

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