So I haven’t made a B yet this semester. I have all 4 of my finals within less than 24 hours of each other, yay. I worked out and I think skipping training was what had me feeling like I was on the edge, I feel relaxed and like I can manage these finals now. Maybe I will workout again tomorrow for safe measure.
I am not worried about my two psych classes, they wont be a problem, but french and logic require lots of tedious memorization. French is going well, logic is going OK but not exactly well, but in a few days I can master these 18 formulas (they have two variations each, more like 36 formulas)
if I can just memorize these formulas I will at least pass, if not make an A or B. I could make a B or even a C on the final and come out with an A or a B because my grade is quite high so far.
Hope you fellow students are doing well and staying healthy amidst finals. Maybe yours arent all within 24 hours, LOL
I had a brief relapse and breakdown yesterday. I took a nap and woke up normal. That was my first actual relapse in quite a while, about 6 months, and my parents told me to just quit trying to be perfect and that my mental health matters more than a perfect GPA.
They said my recovery has been too perfect and something like this was bound to happen, that I had come shockingly far in a very short amount of time and that I need to keep in mind that slow and steady wins the race, that powerlifting and making straight A’s for the past year has been somewhat ridiculous given my prognosis when I was evaluated (morbid prognosis, suicide within a decade and further psychopathic deviance was in the works). I have also been dating for the past year and have made a handful of new friends. Lots of people want to get in my pants and I’ve let a few of them in, but I am trying to have a relationship with someone now and not just be f-buddies.
One of my friends visited yesterday and today and told me not to pressure myself to make A’s and just to pass, he pointed out that the psych classes are what they will look at for grad school, and I have no problems with them, I am sure I will make an A in them, the lowest grade ive made so far in either of them was a 95.
Maybe this is way too long of a post, I am pretty stressed and I recently had a relapse and felt like I was going back to square one, so I am sort of venting.