The emptiness feels a lot like loneliness. Just as I began to say “No voices right now”, I heard a man’s voice. I can’t remember what he said. He just apologized, “I’m sorry”. I feel like he is trying to get in to everything I do. He basically is trying to destroy my life. He makes me look gay. I’m not gay. He does it so that people won’t talk to me. He hurts me every time I try to make friends. I am terribly lonely. I remember when In was 20 and voices were the furthest from my mind. I had lots of friends. Now I’m all messed up inside. I feel like crying. I live with a relative and I feel really bad for accidentally braking some things of hers. I want to replace them but she won’t let me. I was exercising and I guess the jumping made something fall off a top shelf. I felt so bad. Maybe I should find my own place but I know for a fact if I go back out there alone. The voices and the people will drive me crazy. I feel so desperate for someone to share my mind with. I appreciate this website.
The voice is trying to make me think these men are wanting to date me when the don’t. I’m nothing I’m worthless. A man’s voice just told me “You’re too heavy”. I don’t need these voices. I want to die. I know I won’t go crazy when it’s time to die because I believe I’ll be finally free of the insanity. I also starting to get the idea that people don’t want me in this town and are plotting against me again.