They’re talking to me again. Saying terrible, horrible things. Disgusting things. I can feel them all around me trying to get inside me to take my soul. I don’t know what to do 
I know if I pray hard enough they’ll go away but I don’t think God will answer my prayers, neither will St. Michael because I’m not worthy. I’m scared
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Call ur pdoc asap…!!!
Its an emergency…!!!
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^ who is this guy?
Overactive imagination. Certainly madness is like a dark story of mind and life, and can easily be seen as being put on the Devils dinner plate in this roller coaster called insanity. It isn’t so though, it’s imagination and just two lines of thoughts going back and forth in your head. Easy as shooting fish in a barrel if you ask me. It’s a serial experience though
They’ve dropped your meds in preparation for abilify. You should talk to your doctor and let him know you’re in distress.
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I can’t. My doctor is in India, she won’t be back until 12/29 and I have an appointment to see her that day. I do see my therapist on Friday though. I can tell her. But pills don’t stop demons. Pills only stop things in the mind. Demons are as real as anything.
Untangiable reasoning is a very touchy place when dealing with insanity/schizophrenia.
You were doing fine until the med change. It might be a rough ride for the next month. There must be some backup plan if your doctor is away. Is there anyone else you can call?
Not today. It’s Sunday. Nothing is open on Sunday. I can call tomorrow and see if my therapist has any earlier appointments.
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So much darkness and hate! Why do they keep coming back? They come back and make my life hell, and sometimes they try to kill me, and then they go away only to come back later. I don’t understand it!
Damit man…use salt…no demons may pass…
What do I do with the salt, do I have to cover myself in the salt or what?
I have a shot glass full under my bed…seems to work…some people use a ring of it encircling them…I don’t know exact origin…but its old…
Hi @Sooner88 I’m sorry the demons have come back. You must be terrified. I hope you can get in to see your therapist sooner than your original appointment.
In the meantime, in preparation for your appointment with your therapist and your pdoc, maybe try writing down everything that is happening, what they are saying, what you are doing in reaction to it etc.
I also wanted to apologise for hijacking your thread on wanting to meet another schizophrenic. I really didn’t intend to and I hope I haven’t offended you. I like you a lot.
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You didn’t offend me, I wasn’t really that bothered actually.
I’m just afraid if I tell my therapist they’ll get mad. The demons can do all kinds of things to hurt me, and the therapist can put me in the hospital, and it will all just go so terribly wrong. I have to find a way to resist and fight the demons on my own.
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I understand where you’re coming from, the threat of being hospitalised is real and very scary.
Do you have any coping strategies that you’ve developed. For me, when I’m getting harmful messages through the radio, I turn the radio off and listen to jazz music because it relaxes me and takes my mind off the messages to hurt myself.
I also created a journal form (because I lost this year’s journal) which asks questions that I have to answer, like what happened, where were you, what else was happening at the time, rate it out of ten, was I anxious etc. Things like that and I collect all my journal forms for the fortnight and take them to my pdoc to read because I forget things between appointments.
Also, do you have valium or anything like that that might help in the meantime?
I agree with @everhopeful this seems to coincide with coming down off invega and switching across to abilify. But I also understand where you’re coming from when you say that the pills won’t help the very real demons.
I wish there was more I could do to help you. I wish you strength to get through and battle the demons.
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Thanks @anon84763962 I do listen to music a lot, especially a band called Twenty One Pilots. Music helps drown out the voices. It helps a lot. It doesn’t help when I physically feel things or when I see things.
I’m going to type it all up for my therapist the day before I see her and also for the doctor before I see her.
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I was listening to this as I read your post…lol
I don’t think I like that guy tbh
I also don’t like the smiley eyes. Red eyes are better.